Thoughts of a Social Layman

Copywrite 1980 - the first of two books by Gary DeVaney.

I recently read an excellent book - "The God Virus" by Dr. Darrel Ray. It inspired me to put two books that I wrote over 30 years ago on my website. In my view, my writing of those two books - which I re-read every few years - is contributory to why I have been a happy human being for the past 30 years. I transcribed and edited my books. I recently added to my books some perspectives that I have gained as a hypnotherapist for over 30 years. Then, I decided to display them on this website. I encourage all human beings to write their own experiences, thoughts and feelings. I view that your getting to know your self enriches your confidence and your happiness. 

Author’s additional "bold print" 2010 comments are included.

Inside book cover:

Comments on the pre-book manuscript:

“Thoughts of a Social Layman” leaves off where self-help books attempt to begin.

It is an encyclopedia of social-emotional terms.

It is mind-provoking in that it makes you think.

It is the punch line – you provide the joke. It is original.

Once you get past the style, it is dynamite. It made me fall in love with me.

“Thoughts of a Social Layman” made me philosophical.

I would have given an eyetooth to have written it. Everybody can identify with it.

College students, trying to expand their mind, will love it.

I would buy a dozen copies for my friends who need it. I wish my wife could read it.

No Ostriches will read this book. (Ergo – the cover inspiration.)

There are a couple dozen posters in this book. Every passage means something.

I may not agree, but it sure makes me think. Exposing these truths may get you killed.

I may not agree with a lot of it, but when I went back, it made more sense each time.

You cannot read it once. It is a reference. A lot of it was true and it bothered me.

You will go back to it repeatedly as things happen - or to re-evaluate something.

Moralists will come down on it. The book spanks people. You hate women.

You are cynical and antisocial.

It encourages / allows you to make your own decisions.

It is refreshing because there are no examples, case histories, or third parties.

Cover design by Gary DeVaney.

The portrait of the  "Thoughts of a Social Layman"  book-cover was painted about 1979 by the now famous American artist - Thomas Kinkade.

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Thoughts of a Social Layman

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Open mind: Having the ability to experience an alien thought without emotionally throwing up.

Cultural standards, over a period-of-time, become traditions. War is a tradition and it is one that will not be changed. War, like survival, is in everybody’s own mind. Traditions and standards are keys to the funny farm. The funny farm is filled with good people whose ideal traditions and standards did not live up to reality. People who work at being their own moral-guilt guardian seem to be the happiest in life. Allowing someone else to sentence your moral guilt is about as intelligent as worshipping Bambi. Guilt can only strike you down in your own mind.

The God Complex: The socially obnoxious person may, in essence, communicate to you: “As the Heavens are above the Earth, so are my ways above your ways. I am wonderful, smart, great, fantastic and powerful.”

Acknowledge his complex. He is great! He is big! He is full of shit.

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The purely “platonic relationship” is one absent of giving or receiving emotion. It is about as exciting as watching paint dry. Manikins can watch it forever.

One cannot defeat truth - only camouflage it.

Note: “Thoughts of a Social Layman” was written in Los Angeles, California during the late 1970s and was published in 1980. When bold print appears an edited comment was added in the year 2010, about 30 years later, by the author: Gary DeVaney.

To learn factual reality, I do not much care to hear people’s truth. Facts have no politics, partiality or agenda. Give me only the facts. Someone’s truth mostly seems to have an ego-motivated agenda concerning the facts. I want to know the reality - plain facts - so to make my own judgment. Do I make judgments? Yes.

Do you make decisions without using judgment? Let’s test it. Would you have faith that your 4-year-old child should walk across a crowded high-speed 6-lane freeway? It is safer to make decisions by judging facts instead of having blind faith in somebody’s manipulative truth.  

Allow people their political, social, and religious views. Their peculiarities and judged abnormalities are peculiar and abnormal only to you. If you have no opinion, you will feel no pain.

Many men get married just so they will not feel weird.

A lonely person has shut out people from his or her life. He or she forgets that the good emotions that he or she gets to keep are the good ones that he or she gives away. Be a friend to have friends.

Many people remain fat so they will not have to outwardly compete in the social world.

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Social animals make things happen, watch things happen and wonder what happened. Claim it all good and be happy.

It is normal for people to seek a fuller, richer social life. It is abnormal not to. If they do not, it is usually because of some stone age hang-ups sold to us as sin. Ignorance is the source of sin, not man-made laws, creeds, or dogma. The only real sin is ignorance. Apply that to the 10 or 120 sins depending on what part of town or whose house you happens to be in. Those sins can be traced to emotional jealousy, possessive, and the laws of man.

Some women get married just so they do not feel like whores.

A social layman has to work at being happy in society. In any work, proper tools and safety are primary considerations.

A good personality is in a person as oil is in the ground. You have to discover it and then work with the proper tools to get it out.

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The social diamonds are out there. All you have to do is dig out your share. But, first of all, make sure make the decision to enjoy society’s riches now.

In the social arena, one must want to be happy, healthy, and successful. Because the only sin is ignorance, the consequence is suffering.

All hang-ups come from misinterpreting life. Knowledge yields proper interpretation, which yields objective, positive principles instead of emotional, negative hang-ups.

A social loser sees society as wicked, immoral, weak, shallow, worthless, and irrational. He feels somewhat that the world was made for him. To get back into the flow of society is to forget these ignorant thoughts and proclaim it good. How can a person enjoy basking is shit instead of flowers? Condemn society and you push it away. Respect society and you are a celebrity. Society wants you, so why be lonely? If you contribute to the social success of others, your success is guaranteed. If you condemn their success, you condemn your own. 

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Social worry is an accumulation of negative conditions. It is anxious, strangled fear. Social worry robs you of vitality, enthusiasm, and energy. It leaves you an emotional wreck. It is caused by apathy, laziness and indifference. The key is obtaining the ability to not think these thoughts. You can replace them with unselfishness, understanding, and most of all, acceptance.

Happiness is having the capacity to accept people, places, and things the way they are. Happiness is not a gift. You will have to work with your own personal social tools to achieve your own personal happiness.

Personal thoughts pull no punches.

The Abstract Lover: They are shy - afraid to be seen naked - eyes tightly shut - outer head turned away - inner head is separated and removed from what is happening. They completely fake awareness of the other party and show less enthusiasm than they would were they masturbating.

Preconditioned foreplay is necessary. Orgasm is premature or absent. Vacating the premises or crying can be an aftermath. They had no thought or interest in the other party – only a means to an end of need.

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The causes of becoming an abstract lover are many. One can be fantasizing an ideal rather than the real and practical experience. It makes the partner feel that he or she is the object of a general experience, with routine overtones, rather than a special, shared experience. The mind is the primary sex organ. The abstract lover’s hang-ups produce restricted talents in having sex. The sensuous partner may never return for a repeat performance because he or she did not feel to be the quality lover the abstract lover emotionally demanded.

Don’t be surprised if a person who is completely into himself while dancing is also completely into himself while having sex. Both ways the partner may feel to be a manikin object. He is just dancing or having sex with himself through you.

Laziness: Fear of making a mistake.

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Many people are fat because they cannot stand rejection. When I am fat and rejected, in my mind, it’s not really me they are rejecting, it’s my fat. If I were slim and beautiful, as I could be, and I were rejected, I would feel that it was really me they rejected. I could not handle being socially rejected without my fat. It is emotionally more convenient and I feel safer being fat. This is an outcome of ignorance, fear, insecurity and limitation of mind. It may take a trauma to get a person’s self-image out of this condition.

“Falling in love” is a traumatic experience. Personally, I became love-insane 4-5 times during my life. Insane? Yes. You often do not know right from wrong when you are passionately “in love”. The feeling of love, for you, may become a very powerful addiction. However, you are not addicted to the love-object. You are addicted to your own genetic feeling. Romantics tend to hate that idea. The love-object does trigger your genetic love-model which, in turn, triggers your genetic feeling.

In my years as a therapist, I learned that clients came to therapy feeling miserable that they were not getting what they wanted out of life. They felt entitled and angry. About 30 years ago, this taught me to avoid and eliminate what I did not want in my life. If you are successful at eliminating what you do not want in life, the rest in life is pretty damned good. By my learning this unusual lesson, I view that it contributed to my being a happy human animal for the past 30 years.

Genetically, the Human Animal is about 98.3% identical to the Chimpanzee. That means that our Human Animal genes are only about 1.7% different than a Chimpanzee's genes.

Shy: Fear of rejection.

Flaky / fickle: Inconsistent emotions.

The DeVaney Two Emotion Theory

In my opinion - a "theory" is just another definite, guaranteed maybe.

The human animal has only two (2) “EMOTIONS” - DO WANTS / DON’T WANTS - and their intensities. There are numerous dictionary-defined feelings.

Specifically, the "EMOTION" is the do want / don’t want intensity of a identifiable feeling or group of feelings.

“Attitude” is an outer sign of inner feelings.

The only “poetry” I ever cared to write:

“Emotions are the music of the genes. Feelings are the identifiable notes. Attitude makes up the composition and behavior presents the performance.”

Only after science proves a theory to be wrong should a theory be discarded.

An answer means nothing unless you have the question.

Even if you have a correct answer, always keep questioning how your answer is correct.

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Macho-fat: If I am fat, I feel that I am big and tough. Nobody will pick on me. If I were slim, I would be afraid.

Nervousness is self-consciousness – not sure of self-image.

The people who like you want the best for you. The people who love you want the best from you.

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Many people who are emotional cripples, turn off the world and turn on a crusade. An obsession with a job, sport, a religion (like a nun), or a romance is a form of emotional suicide. Socially, they limit their attitudes like tunnel-vision. Romantics love it.

People , who emotionally hurt themselves, become defensive and they build a wall around themselves. But, can you imagine the impact when you are inside that wall and hate yourself in the meantime? Knock down that wall! Reach out and give of yourself.

Love is a feeling. It is not how important as to how pretty, how big, how sexy, how tall, how much hair, or how anything else you are as long as you give the most wonderful, fantastic, unbelievably generous emotional feelings. Vibes are your thermometer.

 Love is a positive feeling, felt by an emotional being, consisting of a desire for a love object or an event complementary of preexisting genetic goals.

For self-responsible, thinking individuals, who lead their lives, meditation / self-hypnosis makes more sense than a groveling prayer to a non-existent entity. Believers, the blind-faith "sheep" who follow their lives, require a "shepherd" to lead them. To examine how you think and feel about issues makes more sense than dogmatically begging to "supernatural" powers that  require that you live by blind faith.  

When you are told to "have faith", you are told to shut-up and do as expected. Faith is designed for you to keep your feet planted firmly in mid-air.

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Hate is a negative feelings felt by an emotional being, consisting of an unwanted, undesired object or event, going against its wishes and beyond its control. 

During impotency, one can only think of oneself. Solution: Work at having the ability to give and think of someone other than yourself. You may not want impotency but you may not want to give. The greater want will win.

Dancing is an outer sign of inner drama., social exhibitionism and physical expression without words. It is a form of physical, emotional foreplay. It can serve as a vehicle for shy people to feel anonymous in exhibitionism.

In social intercourse, does your partner give generous emotions, or does put an emotional or financial price tag on them?

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Emotions are the cheerleaders of the mind. You can’t win, lose, gain or anything else except in the mind. Poisonous influences cause us to see things as bad - which is in the mind. Without negative influences, we probably would have accepted them and deemed them good.

Prayer consists of emotional cleansing by positive thoughts wished for someone or ourselves. Instead of praying to a fictitious, supernatural god, we should address our genes. The subconscious picks up the positive seeds and like magic, we become better, happier and more competent human being. Input or prayer, is saying good things about your attitude. Your problems will relax and so will you. The subconscious takes no jokes. What you feed into it, you become. Generous, positive thoughts are the key.

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Shyness: An emotional fear - a do want / don’t want disorder. (Edited)

Close dancing is a great vehicle for determining vibes and the acceptance level of another human being. (Edited)

Virtue is its own reward.

If you claim to be virtuous and you abstain from having sex to be virtuous, that is exactly what you end up with… virtue … and then what do you got? Manikins are virtuous. (Edited)

Just as fear and ignorance scare people away from guns, so is fear and ignorance responsible for poor and unhappy sex lives. If your subconscious (your ever-aware, inter-acting genes) buys into negative ideas about sex, it is going to lead you to social failure. The answer is to get in touch with and to organize your feelings. Become aware of each feeling’s identifiable, emotion-intensity. Do not turn your back on your feelings - nor their intensities. A feeling, like the desire to breathe (a necessary feeling that you are addicted to) will make itself known to you. You can meditate on your important feelings rather than praying and begging to some programmed, fictional, supernatural nonsense. Become understanding of your feelings and, by choice, work at reassigning your emotional intensities. Your feelings and their intensities will let themselves be known to you. Happiness is a breath away. (Edited)

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Can you open yourself up to the social riches? Can you accept your social role in life as a means of pleasure? Your social flowing in life is like your blood flowing healthily throughout your body - free of congestion - healthy and happy. (Edited)

Did you ever find someone who complains that everyone is rubbing him the wrong way? Did he speak with in an irritable tone? Was his speech absurd? It was all because of his self-condemnation. He thinks angrily of himself. In social intercourse, you may think that your unhappy experiences are because of other people. These relationships are determined by your feelings toward yourself. If you despise yourself, you cannot have good feelings towards others. If you don’t like yourself, how can you expect others to like you? Vibes are contagious in a social atmosphere and can be reciprocal. If you project feelings of prejudice and contempt for others – that’s exact what you get back. (Edited)

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An answer may be this: I’ll be totally unselfish. I’ll treat others exactly the way I want to be treated. I will respect and admire them and the happy ones will feel that I respect and admire myself. Who wants to socially deal with unhappy people anyway? Unhappy people tend to push responsibility for their existence on other people in their so-called relationships. They mostly turn out to be mutually disastrous head-trips.

Love: Mutual values.

However, when the values split - people split.

If you find yourself getting hung up with emotionally cripples socially, ask yourself, am I here to play the role of the castrated, martyred pope – or to have fun? The emotional cripples will declare you to be shallow and insincere if you elect to have fun.

Work is serving others for compensation. Fun is self-serving. If you are having fun, emotional cripples may quickly realize that they cannot use you to serve them on their terms. 

They prefer that you jump into their emotional pit of agony.

Therapy: Your therapy is your desire to change you to better suit you. You do not have to be sick to get better. Visualize, in your therapy, that you are inside a fishbowl. Your world and your problems are in that fishbowl. Your therapist is outside of your fishbowl looking in. Do not expect your therapist to join you inside your fishbowl. The therapist must always remain outside the fishbowl to be effective. Your therapist did not create your problem. He or she is not responsible for your problem. As shocking as reality is, your therapist is not there to help you. His or her job is a thousand times more important. Your therapist is there to assist you in helping yourself. Your therapist is not going to be with you over the next 5 to 50 years. If you do not desire to help yourself – no therapist’s assistance will be effective for you.

If you become aware that an attractive emotional cripple is trying to pull you into his or her negative, emotional pit of agony, don’t be a fool. Feed positive thoughts in and with a breath of kindness blow the relationship or acquaintance away. Give complete acceptance and freedom for all to be who they are. That way you feel no jealousy, no need to correct, no feeling for unnecessary obligation, no insecurity. Unselfishness, consent to reality, and the capacity to accept other human beings the way they are - are your keys to your happiness.

Always remember: You have the capacity to accept other human animals the way they are without having to emotionally or financially support them.

You were not put on planet Earth for any other human animal. Romantics - and other emotional / financial parasites - will be horrified, heart-broken and disappointed when they learn that you know this.

Sometimes - effective therapy has to play hard-ball - for the client to win back his or her life. I never call my clients patients. I have always tried to operate as if there are no victims in my therapy practice. What reality deals us - we often have little choice about.

"Your character is not determined by what happens to you. Your character is determined by how you handle what happens to you.": Source unknown.

Therapy results when there are issues in the client’s life that they do not want there. I look for those issues, uncover them and expose those issues to the client. The client examines what is uncovered, considers his or her options, and then makes his or her own choices.

I am the master of my life. I view that all other human beings are the masters of their lives. If I do not treat each of them as the master of their life - I lose my mastership. Some therapy issues can be remedied. Some cannot. All therapy clients are “going concerns”. Therapy clients have come to the realization that they have intellectually selected bad options and they have emotionally made bad choices. These bad options and choices lead to their disadvantage and to their misery. They intelligently seek assistance in making corrections within themselves so to have a happier, less damaging life for themselves and for others around them. 

Visualize that in your world, your problems and your goals are in a fishbowl for all other human animals to see - without others having to be in the fishbowl with you.

Anyone may happen into your atmosphere. You choose who comes into your world. Egos want selected others in their world. Egos sometimes erroneously feel entitled to be served, supported, and often financed by those they invite into their world.

The practice of therapy remains outside of your fishbowl / world - to best analyze it. That is why your “therapy” is often called “analysis”.

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 At a party, I wish fun and success for all the people. I give complete freedom and wish them a good time. If it should include me, it’s wonderful. If not, I understand.

"Understanding" is an intellectual process while "acceptance" is an emotional process.

Furthermore, I accept it. Petty things just don’t irritate me. When other’s jealously and criticism come to me, unselfishness opens my mind. I recognize the problem to be in their mind. It is their problem – not mine. It is none of my business to argue and only the insecure will defend.  

When someone complains of hurt feelings, he (or she) is emotionally stating that he wanted something that happened to not go his way. As long as he feels selfish about that want, he will feel hurt. If he shares his hurt feelings with you, they cannot affect you unless you accept those hurt feelings as your own.

Mad or hurt feelings are initially his problem. If you sympathize with him, they may become your problem. The negative, thoughts, feelings and suggestions of others have no power over you unless you give them power. Why would you give them power over you? Leave it to those who gamble with their emotional systems. Do not sympathize with someone who has a choice and chooses to be unhappy.

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There are two basic ways that “A Social Laymen” handles something - intellectually objective or ego-emotional. Objectivity causes peace-of-mind while ego-emotion often costs you a piece of your mind. When you become an emotional wreck, you some times feel that you are “losing your mind”. You temporarily lose your sense of who you are. When you become aware of this, it may be your time for your therapy. 

You’re fired! Career assassination, legal financial theft.  

By popular vote in a world survey of “Social Laymen”, orgasm led heart attack for relieving tension. The “holier-than-thou” moral-guilt guardians lost again.

Many people with no answers to issues - disagree and challenge people with answers to issues - only to determine how confident they are with their answers. How can someone initially agree with another’s thoughts if he or she has not experienced them or made time to objectively think them out? We tend to relate and limit another’s answer or perspective to our own current circumstance or experience rather than to expand our thinking to view a more complete picture.

Having “heart” must be deemed good - for without it - you are dead.

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Life is that precious time when we have the privilege to experience intellect and emotions before what we call death.

“Death”: The expiration of a human ego's one and only genetic-life-cycle.

“Eternity”: The absence of time.

When we think a person dies. The “soul”, an electrical blueprint, is released from the body. Actually, the world dies to the soul.

I “believed” this when I was a licensed, ordained minister. I now view that this some-what dogmatic statement is not valid, in reality. I admit that I now view I was wrong in my perception. I have made mistakes. I still make more mistakes than an ego cares to admit. I do try to become aware of my errors and to correct them.

Just because a perspective is controversial, that does not qualify it to be an error. Dogmatic beliefs - proven over time to be bogus in reality - are errors.  

If you view that, by valid evidence, anything written in this book is a valid error - please submit your correction. If proven valid, your correction will be made - and you will be sincerely thanked: gary@garydevaney.com

The God Complex: An ego's illusion of having perfect power, perfect mind, perfect attitude and a perfect philosophy. “I think right! I cannot and will not tolerate wrong thinking or incompetence. My ways are not your ways. My Ego / God is great. Your ego / god is nothing. My standards and morals are by which you are live. If I judge that you fail me, I will destroy your life and if I could, I would send you into Eternal Torment.

But, don’t forget, "I love you."

Ah Christian love! Again, I acknowledge “The God Complex”: He's great! He's big. He's full of shit!

As the Biblical God proves to be the most miserable character in the entire Bible - so do many of this God’s believers - who push this kind of authoritative, poisonous, and restrictive, dogma on other human beings - have unhappiness behind their masks.

“That’s gross - I love it!” - “It’s morally distasteful and it somehow turns me on.”

Do some tattoos have this kind of diabolical effect on some people?

Another exercise in perspectives:

Most snakes are longer than others … conversely, most snakes are shorter than others. All snakes are shorter than the longest.

When people decide that something is great, they fail to see how great it is not.

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When they decide that something is bad, they fail to se how bad it is not.

Emotional people can only see one side of an emotional issue.

Humor is emotional medicine designed to relax and cleanse the emotional system through a mental / physical release called laughter.

When you do not agree with something - it is because it is not true - or, you do not want it to be true.

US GOVERNMENT ECONOMICS

If you want to earn a PHD in economic-over-spending, become a United States Senator or Congressman. The United States Government has proven that its economic policy is not a science. It proves to be a bad form of art. There are super-bad religions, insane god-models, and super-bad economic models. The US Government displays many bad models for its citizens to learn from, follow or to emulate. Do you tend to over-spend your money - just like the US Government over-spends your hard-earned tax money?  

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Income Tax

We, the Internal Revenue Service, are legal crooks. As an individual, you have no choice but to pay us.

We, the I.R.S., are a protection racket. If you don’t pay up, you will suffer consequences.

We are blackmailers. If you don’t pay, unpleasant things will befall you.

We are kidnappers. No pay means we will put you away in a little box (prison).

We are thieves. If you do not pay what we demand, we will steal your most precious, irreplaceable asset - your “unaccountable time”. 

There is no Constitutional law saying that you must pay us. Just pay us - or else.

We, your government, have murderous wars to wage and mistresses to keep. Pay up! 

We spend more than we take in - so pay up! Oh please! Please! Please! Please!

In an audit, we may know a code that allows a deduction, but if you don’t know it, we collect. We are your not so silent partners. We happily share in all your profits and we never volunteer to share in your loses. If you know enough or happen to ask the right questions, maybe we will help. If you do not - never! We make it as close to impossible for an individual to ask the right questions. Why do think we call it a code?

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Did you ever notice that when you get the best of one of our auditors, we simply assign another one against you? We usually win our bluffs. And, there are always many of us and, hopefully, only one of you.

We have the power. Do not resist! Resistance will be futile. We are highly trained to pick you clean. We are your greatest pimps. If we audit you and find that you have moved, you have lost your receipts and you cannot prove your deductions, we’ll burn you for all of it. If we expect your next year’s receipts are also in those missing files, we will burn you for that too. Should you cop any negative attitude about it - we hope you don’t like it! You serve us. We do not serve you. The costly infrastructure that we, your US government, provide this country is designed so that you can better serve us.

Death Tax

Howard Gould accumulated an estate worth $67,535,386 and died. We, the US Government treasury, collected $49,506,615 as to our share.

If your heirs cannot pay us cash, we will “force sell” your properties to get our cash. If the “forced sale” leaves nothing for your heirs - we could care less.

We prefer that you do not plan for the distribution of your estate’s assets and proceeds.

We prefer that you die without a will so that we can control cashing in on your estate.    

Keep up the good work! The more you make, the more we take.

The United States Government: Woo the people. Fool the people. Screw the people.

Our secret is: We, the United States Government, are owned by The International Bankers. These (invisible) International Bankers need your money to make US their top terrorist on planet Earth.

Oops! How did that get in there?

Critic: But, you are a retired United States Reserve Army officer. How dare you accuse your generous, loving, caring, god-fearing, righteous Government of such a thing?

My loyalty is to the U. S. Constitution - not an illegal operating rogue government. My bad.

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Hung-up people tend to tell you fifteen reasons why you should not or can not do something and not one reason why or how you can. They will tell you when you can’t pick your nose, fart or masturbate; but, they will never tell you when you can. We will impose our values as to what you can’t do and leave to your conscientious what you can do. If you make a mistake or get caught – shame on you. If you feel guilt – that’s your problem. Join the club.

Pure knowledge, honesty and acceptance would make life basic and dull and nothing to be emotional about. Mystery, fear, lies, drama and ignorance are the fascination. They provide emotion intrigue, pain, horror and trauma. People become fascinated when they see assorted ways that human beings emotionally and physically compete.

We Human animals consist of animal genes. Experience triggers genes. Genes trigger experiences. Some of our triggered / lit-up animal genes are active. Some are partially shutdown. Some are dormant. Our primal, animal-genes may require us to be at war - killing others and dying.  

Don’t only tell people that they can’t do something – if you can suggest a time when they can do it. For example: Do not masturbate in public. It is illegal. But, give it Hell in private. The more we seem to advance, socially, the more hypocrisy seems to be a virtue.

Murder: If you are not going to play the game my way, you are not going to play.

Suicide: If you are not going to play the game my way – I am not going to play.

Either way - control - is the motive. The "controller" may say: “I feel that I have lost control or that I am not in control of something I want - so I will be in control of your murder or of my suicide.”

Analysis: Renegade animal feelings / genes and damaged human egos do damage.

In behavior – we do not even scratch our ass without some awareness of a feeling.

Perspective: We must, each of us, become aware of and take stock or our animal feelings - and their emotional intensity - that were created by our animal genes. Those active genes still direct and supervise those active feelings. Through repetition, we sensitize and desensitize, turn on and turn off, certain identifiable feelings and consequently the genes that they are hard-wired to. With self-hypnosis / meditation, we re-program our animal genes - which control the feelings we respond to. Self-hypnosis / meditation can become handy.

Don’t be concerned about your ability to achieve self-hypnosis. Every belief you have is a form of self-hypnosis. Select a feeling. With repetition, reinforce your direction of that feeling. You can over-come your addiction to the feeling that triggers your desire - for instance to smoke. After you overcome a negative feeling, you can reprogram other negative feelings. It becomes as easy as child’s-play. You just have to create the will to do so. All hypnosis is self-hypnosis. A hypnotherapist is simply the operator who assists you in your ability to achieve self-hypnosis at will.  

Take a moment to do a short hypnotic process – Ok?

After reading this close your eyes and think back to your younger life when you liked a car – a favorite car. Name the car to yourself. Patiently, look at the car from the front and move around the car. What color is it? Make the paint as pretty as you like. Open a door and look at the seats, the dash. Mentally record what you see. 

Now, go back in time and revisit a pet – a favorite pet. Name the pet to yourself. Have the pet look at you as pretty and as happy as you could remember it. Look at the pet’s fir. What color is it?

Open your eyes. Come out of Alpha brainwaves back into Beta. Tell yourself about the car. Tell yourself or to another out loud all the things you saw. Now, the pet. Tell what its name was, what color it was. What else did you see that you would like to describe? 

If you were successful at doing this hypnotic process / exercise, you have the ability to feel, isolate and identify a specific feeling or craving that causes a habit. You can kindly talk to your feeling which talks to the creator gene that it is hardwired to. Positive repetition programs both your feeling and the gene so that you are no longer addicted to that feeling. Your unwanted feelings, cravings and behaviors can be eliminated and controlled by you – the master of your life. If successful, your attitude and your health will improve. If successful, you have saved therapy and bad habit money and you may have influenced your ego / self-esteem balance. A master does not require another’s permission or authority to control his or her own life.

As long as you won't - you can't.

If you are selfish and it huts you or another – stop being selfish.

If you are selfish and it does not hurt anybody – enjoy it!

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Pain is not good unless you are a masochist. Then, it’s wonderful.

A social introvert may get one year’s experience in ten year’s time, whereby a social extrovert may get ten year’s experience in one year’s time.

So, a lady was on a crowded airplane. In mid-flight, she sniffed some black powder, sneezed, and went into a seizure. She tensed, went into a convulsion, became spasmodic, jerked and twitched. Her face grimaced. She made ear-piercing sounds, her eyes tightly shut. Then, she relaxed, caught her breath, and collapsed back into her seat. A Priest, sitting next to her thought she was dying. She sniffed the black powder and had a seizure two more times during the flight. At the end of the third episode, the Bible-holding Priest asked: Miss, what is happening to you? She smiled warmly and said softly: When I sneeze, I have an orgasm. He roared: Oh my God! That is demonic! Horrible! Terrible! It is disgusting! Satan is in you! Then composed - the concerned Priest asked: My child, what do you take for that? She leaned close to him and whispered: Pepper… 

When I think of all the sinning I have done throughout my entire life, I have to conclude that having sex with a variety of women is my favorite sin.

Hummm. Gotta go. Got some sinning to do.

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Prejudice

The rich have no interest being a peer to the poor.

The healthy have no interest being a peer to the sick.

The intelligent have no interest being a peer to the stupid.

The successful has no interest being a peer to the failure.

The superior has no interest in being a peer with the inferior.

The living has no interest being a peer to the dead - except when suffering.

Prejudice is pre-choosing what or whom you will deal with tomorrow. Man is the choosing animal. Inferiors resent prejudice.

Liking or disliking someone is putting a positive or a negative value on them. Having the capacity to put a neutral value on them is emotionally safer than projecting a negative value.

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Social happiness is having the ability to accept people the way they are – but – only spend time with the ones who are good to you.

I live by my values in my life – not yours. If while in your home, you insist that I live by your values, I may not be in your home long.

A book is of value only to those who can deal with it.

It is not so hard to learn things in the future, as it is to unlearn things from the past.

Love: Putting another person’s values above your own. A fascinating copout.

Romantic freedom: We may share our bodies; but, if you want my will - my soul - my life or my cash, you will be frustrated.

"Unaccountable time" is the time you do not account to another authority.

As long as I live by - “unaccountable time” - I am truly free.

Society takes your greatest asset “unaccountable time” when it puts you in prison. Be intelligent. Do not gamble and break enforceable criminal or civil laws that can put you in prison. You are the master of your life. Understand that you are a success while you live in your kingdom of “unaccountable time”.

"Street people" may claim to have "unaccountable time", but they account to poverty - which, like prison, is not freedom.

There is only one human being on Earth who can love you or like you the way you want to be loved or liked. You.

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Your "philosophy" is your love of your values in your life.

A typical romantic fantasizes sharing their mind, body and emotions.

Gary DeVaney’s: The Genetic-Love-Model Theory

(A "theory" is another definite, guaranteed maybe. It is absolutely true - unless it is not.)

Nobody really knows much about his or her genes. The study of genes, what they mean and what they do is a fairly new science. James Watson and Francis Crick discovered the genetic double-helix around 1952.

Most human animals do not know about their Genetic-Love-Model. Romantics are somewhat aware of their Genetic-Love-Model but most believe that their god-daddy will send their "soul-mate" to them. 

We all have a Genetic-Love-Model but we never seem to get a real clear look at it. If we are available, inclined and participating in social / sexual intercourse, many partners can trigger our Genetic-Love-Model at any time throughout our lifecycle. Romantics and most married individuals do not want to hear that. Some human animals can fall-in-love at age 90 - and some at age 4.

A romantic is usually in a zealous search for Mr. / Miss Right, someone who will trigger them to falling-in-love with their own Genetic-Love-Model. When their Genetic-Love-Model is triggered, the romantic suddenly makes the love-object responsible for his or her newly addicted feeling. The reality is, they are addicted to their feeling - not to the love-object. If the love-object’s Genetic-Love-Model is also triggered, a relationship or even a traditional marriage may develop. If either party does not sufficiently trigger the feeling intensity for the other person’s own Genetic-Love-model, the relationship may be short-lived. When the relationship crashes, the partner more addicted to his or her Genetic-Love-Model suffers the greater sense of loss. Some romantics become frustrated, obsessed and insane in their quest of finding someone suitable to trigger their Genetic-Love-Model. You cannot romantically or sexually love another human animal more than you love your Genetic-Love-Model. You must love your own sex-life before you can love having sex with another.    

Most marriages amount to a business venture. Most of these "marriages" fail in intense feeling and / or in reality.

The greatest test of love is a sense of loss.

To the traditional female romantic: The greatest sex partner you ever will have is one who has sex with you but for himself.

Romantic: WHAT?

If your partner has sex with you - for himself - he wants to be there.

If he has sex with you and for you - it’s called a “mercy-fuck”. 

Fool: One who follows another’s morals, philosophies and perspectives that are not his or her own.

Dominance: Control of mind, body and emotion.

Philosophical warfare: Capture and destroy incompatible philosophies. A self-centered, authoritative, ego will not compete so much as to try to destroy another’s philosophy. Life is a universe more than your and my philosophy.

You can always tell a believer - but not much.

If something was learned, evolution has taken place. Religious believers don’t much believe in evolution. You, as a human animal, have evolved from an orgasm-produced zygote and you will evolve into a lifeless corpse in a few short years.

Who? What? Where? When? How? Means Who, what, where, when and how is something of value to them?

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Trust: One’s confidence that he or she will be kept secure in their value system.

A brain surgeon performing brain surgery is paying for his dinner. An Eagle that rabbit with the warm eyes is also paying for his dinner. Morals are just traditionally assigned right or wrong values. To feel beneficial science or raw nature to be immoral is ignorant. 

Psychosis, paranoia, manic-depression, schizophrenia: I know what the dictionary defines each condition to mean. I know that these conditions are allowed to exist due to ignorance. Like cancer - if you knew the cure for cancer - cancer would not exist.

Have medical caregivers ever allowed curable diseases to exist for profit? Have insane human beings ever waged war on other human beings by introducing them to - or inoculating them with - deadly diseases? Has the United States Government ever done anything so evil? You might check out: “The Killing Winds” by Jeanne McDermott. 

Has the United States Government ever assassinated leaders of other countries or topple other governments or to control world politics? If you are mind-set that the U. S. Government has not, then, do not check out: “Confessions of an Economic Hit-Man” by John Perkins or “Overthrow” by Stephen Kinzer.

Religion: The first-class copout in not having to be responsible to ourselves.

For the believer, God is in control and responsible - not their ego or their evolving, influential genes. Self-responsibility is not a long-suit for the religious believer.

Hate: Emotional diarrhea.

If it were not for ignorance, nobody would do what nobody wants to do.

Rationalizing: The art of disbelieving imperfection.

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DREAM OF THE TRUE AMERICAN

OR

OATH OF ALLEGIANCE OF SHEEP

I promise to put “God and Country’s” values over mine.

I promise to fight and die for my “God and Country’s” values, deserting mine - and my family’s values.

I promise to allow “God and Country’s” to determine what part of my earnings I may keep.

I promise to let “God and Country’s” to be the landlord of my life, to live by your values, to obey your rules and to pay you for the privilege.

I promise to be religious, to keep in practice of begging, to practice feeling inferior to a superior authority (fictitious or not) and to not be loyal to myself.

I promise to never complain or to comment negatively so to assure that things will go your way and that you will maintain control.

I promise to live for your approval and to create a substantial estate to leave you upon my death.

I promise to pay maximum Social Security, die before retirement in your service, so that you can reassign my number. 

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I promise to be in the 95% that accept and do not understand and not to be in the 5% who understand and do not accept.

I promise to be pro US Government and anti-reason, to not question why - and “logic” - I will consider to be treason.

I promise to be insecure in my power, dependent on yours, and pay any price to meet your expectations. Because God does not approve of me, you must, I pray.

I promise to pledge to the death (mine of someone else’s) that my “God and Country”

is right, just and fair - no matter what mistakes you make.

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JADED

Jaded person are abstract and surly. They wear their personality like rank. They expect “emotional dues” to be paid by another’s’ efforts to figure them out. A maturely jaded person is emotionally short-circuited. They were hurt / disappointed and they will not display interest that can hurt again. They are pessimists. Jaded people seek “saviors” to rescue them from their chronic disinterest. They appear as a “shell of existence”. They seldom accept an invitation without hassle or a dramatic: “No. I couldn’t”. They truly live in a tiny world. They have shallow and limited interests. They are “flaky” and display inconsistent emotions. They don’t trust their feelings. They are apathetic because they are afraid that they will make another painful mistake. Give them a million dollars or lay them and they will respond like they are doing you a favor. It is like they suffered an emotional heart attack and the emotions can’t get out of bed. They insist you send them emotional candy, flowers and a get-well card. Their attitude is: “As long as I don’t try, I can’t fail.” Hopeless, jaded people have professional attitudes like seasoned hookers.

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Happy people value their happiness and choose not to get involved with the jaded.

If you take a thought and relate it to yourself – you probably limit the thought.

Only if you make life a procedure can complications set in.

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RESPONSIBLE: ACCOUNTING TO SOMEBODY ELSE

Are you responsible or are you free? Most people feel a stomach pit of fear concerning the insecurity of being free. Religion is man-made. Religion is designed to condition, brainwash and program your living by somebody or something else’s values in your life. Parents enforced that you to live by their values in your life. Schools and social institutions, enforced that you to live by their values in your life. Human beings, with no identity, tend to live by other’s values 24 / 7. “Thy will be done”. Once you are trained and conditioned to accounting to someone else or taking orders, the easier you are controlled. The most valuable controls. 

Other than proven science and gravity - all authority on planet Earth is temporary, “assumed authority”. Certainly the men, who have assumed authority throughout history, were temporary. The Biblical God never existed yet mankind's animal genes use the Biblical God insanity to cover all the insane genetic guilt.

Why do many authority figures promote God?

Once the "believer" is conditioned, hypnotized and brain-washed to obey a fictitious authority / God, the believer becomes a practiced, disciplined obeyer. Many believers desire to passionately believe. Many seek an authority to believe in, support, serve and even to sacrifice for. It then becomes much easier for an “assumed authority” to step in and effectively control the believer. Assumed authorities want you to believe. 

Social-emotional perspective: Anyone may happen into my atmosphere - but I choose who comes into my world.

Bottom-line answers require bottom-line question.

The question is the highest form of thought.

Knowledge is a low form of thought because the heavy-lifting has already been done to acquire the knowledge.

Belief is the stupidest form of thought. It settles for its mind-set "I don't know".

A believer dares not question his or her belief for if they do question their belief - they prove not to believe it. If you cannot question, your thought process is paralyzed. Believers eliminate their thinking processes by constantly reinforcing their beliefs. Their mental behavior becomes that of an atomotone. Their recycled words becomes redundant and robotic.

This explains the paradox of belief: A believer can not question his or her belief - for if he or she does question his or her belief, they prove not to believe it. Each and every belief is a state of hypnosis. The questioning / thinking process is then paralyzed. Figuratively, a believer walks around with half his brain tied behind his back.

Hypnotherapy can de-hypnotize "Beta". Hypnotherapy gives your mental-emotional system a chance to come out of all the states of belief / hypnosis that you walk around in. Hypnotherapy brings you to here and now reality which is your starting point to visit your past experiences and to experience your future without it being sabbotaged by the past.

Authoritative people, who are in your life, do not want to lose their control over you so they will authoritatively condemn your starting to question and to think. They do not want you to break your belief hypnosis. They want your programmed beliefs to remained intact. You probably do the same thing to selected others in your life. Don't you?

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A cause for rejection: I feel that your feelings – and their intensities – towards me are not those I would be happy with.

Platonic: the absence of emotion. When one feels that they have lost the ability to feel concerning another.

Turn page quietly . . . reader sleeping.

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Intelligence / stupidity: Your timed capacity / your ability to absorb, digest, evaluate, assign a value, make a decision and take an action which proves to be of value to you.

Human flaws: One stroke of an artist’s brush may appear distasteful - even hideous. But it, along with combination of others, may be responsible for a masterpiece.

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“NON-DEPENDENCE”

“Independence” is an attitude while “non-dependence” is a status.

A person, who is truly “non-dependent”, is uncontrollable. If he or she is powerful and non-dependent, he is usually a hero or a villain. If he is independent with no power, he seems crazy or to be a bum of no use to others. People are ultimately not interested in people they cannot use. A “non-dependent” individual may feel toward morality this: I am allowed to make mistakes. Who said so? I did. I account to me instead of others. For an emotional human being to be perfect is impossible. To attempt the impossible leads to frustration.

When I went through the Army National Guard Officer Candidate School (O.C.S.) program, our insane school slogan was:

“Perfection is our standard - the impossible our goal!”

After my graduation, I became the next “Tactical Officer” for the new class of candidates.

I have always considered that idealistic slogan to be a pledge of insanity.

I personally pledge my loyalty to the United States of America and to its citizens. I dislike and feel no loyalty to what the corrupt US Government has become throughout my lifetime. World Wars I and II may have been necessary wars. Since then, I view that US believers have to be insane, gullible and fanatical to give their lives by obeying unconstitutional and illegal orders to murder the competition of our now insane US Government's corporate "interests". To wage war by initiating a pre-emptive attack against a country that cannot possible be a war-threat and to broadcast lies to do so - is murderous and insane.

Former President George W. Bush murdered and damaged the lives of over one million innocent Iraqis with his arrogant, pre-empted, oil-driven war on Iraq. He since has admitted that Iraq had nothing to do with the terrorists who attacked the USA on 9/11 and that Iraq had no Weapons of Mass Destruction. Most of the weapons used by Iraq, were preveously issued to Iraq by the USA. Most of the US weapons, that Iraq had possessed, were expended on Iran and on their own Kurds. Bush’s public admission held no regrets for his lies nor has Bush repented for his mass murders.

Bush is videoed to say: "God told me to attack Iraq."

Talk about bad genes!

A few thousand loyal US believers gave their lives by obeying George Bush’s illegal and unconstitutional orders. Many human beings - on both sides - have been sacrificed for his mistakes. Why do you think George W. Bush and his insane, megalomaniac collaborate, Richard B. Cheney, continue to live freely? The authoritative “might makes right” Biblical-God-Model will remain as long as the believers, who promote and support this Biblical-God-Model, control humanity. 

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Your physical beauty may attract attention. But, it takes emotional beauty to hold attention. You can somewhat control both. Nature can only shortchange you on one.

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There is an emotion guidance called common sense. Common sense tends to be conservative (not in the Republican sense) directing all thoughts by keeping positive / negative balance control.

Renegade right-brain thoughts, like children, who roam at will, are responsible for invention, fantasy and creativity. When creativity, a new thought process, is triggered, the two “emotions” (do-wants / don’t-wants and their intensities) pressure the ego to decide. If the ego decides - yes - goals are set and an agenda begins. The ego then begins to experience do-want elation toward the agenda’s achievement or don’t-want frustration toward the agenda’s failure.

Common sense tries to control renegade thoughts when stress sets in by bringing other feelings and their intensities into the mix.

Confusion is many things. One of which is a time of learning and growing.

Should you feel discouraged - cherish your “down-time” - for that is when you get to know yourself best.

Successful people always welcome renegade, inventive thoughts. But, you must work at putting in positive thoughts so that the emotional system will be safeguarded. A mental / emotional injury or accident is called a trauma. 

Your misery is always in direct proportion to your expectation. Albert Einstein and Thomas Edison were wrong many more times than they were right. Do you dare try?

To be happy with others, ask but never expect. Allow them to assist you in helping yourself. Expect little assistance and appreciate much. Lift yourself and everyone around you.

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Without a positive sense of humor, your genes can take no jokes.

Most of my impotence in writing has been realized during this lifetime.

Sex – a philosophical perspective:

Can you perceive that at the exact moment you verbalized your greatest witticism, about a half-billion people, throughout the world, had their ears jammed between somebody else’s legs?

Many great male lovers do a lot of women - like a lot of men could - if they only would. First, you have to give yourself permission to do a lot of women. If one, of either sex, is not over-selective, one will be kept busy.

Someone imprisoned by an idealistic morality will say: I won't!

Again, as long as one won't - one can't.

For the healthy human animal, having sex is the most awesome sport on planet Earth. To have great sex, competent birth-control and a clean, enthusiastic partner is the secret.

Jealousy is felt when one person does something without the consent of another.

You can not lose your jealousy without giving your consent.

A person, who feels jealous / inferior, may declare that some people are so spoiled by their beauty that they never had time to develop their characters or personalities. They relate character to adversity.

Emotion vampire: A jealous, possessive individual who wants to feed on someone's attention.

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People, who are the happiest and the most fortunate, are the people whose feelings are allowed to flow in life – much like a river flows around the rocks and bends. If life flows without too much friction around the obstacles, its ego is happy. When life gets bogged down, dammed up and the feelings cease to flow freely, confusion and pain set in. The ego may feel dissatisfied with everything and everyone around it. It withdraws, experiencing fear. Without ignorance, fear cannot exist. When things go bad, change what you can; and what you cannot, accept it. Acceptance is your confident path back to happiness. The reality of the universe does not need to serve us on our terms.

Confession: Putting your private feelings, secret behaviors, illegal and immoral events into words.

Taking an vacation is traveling and experiencing people, places and things without becoming committed to them. Some happy people have learned to make the rest of their lives an emotional vacation.

Visiting the family usually is not a vacation.

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Knowledge provides fewer emotional impulses than ignorance. People often prefer ignorance because knowledge leads to boredom - which provides limited emotional impulses.

“Flaky” of “fickle” is simply inconstant emotions. The emotions declare something god, flashes a negative and declare it bad. Something is right - no - it’s wrong. Inconsistent emotions are often caused by a trauma. A trauma is often an emotional accident.

Many people feel that they have to burn good money to burn good emotions. Sometimes afterwards, they feel burnt.

Hypnosis deals with four stages of basic awareness. Beta. Alpha. Theta. Delta. Consider an elementary explanation of these conditions: Beta: Everyday, conscious, walk around awareness. Alpha: Day-dream, deep-thought / belief, remembering, imagining, fantasying. Theta: Normal REM (Rapid Eye Movement) / dream sleep. Delta: There is no machine that I am aware of yet sensitive enough to measure what happens during Delta waves. Maybe when active gene participation can be measured, Delta will make more sense.

Deep sleep: When positive, negative and neutral charged thoughts and feelings compete by roaming through the mental / emotional system. They are often indefinable and unrecoverable when conscientious. Maybe the animal genes do their best communicating with the human mind during this time.

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One reason that men bicker and barter with prostitutes is because of the common remitter called money. Rejection has a safeguard because it is not the man being rejected, it’s the amount of his money.

Many men gain the power to have sex with beautiful women that they would never get close to without a required amount of money. Some men have “money-power”. Some women have “pussy-power”. Both get what they want and win in the prostitution game - unless the law busts them. Then, the court fines the hooker and sends her back into the streets. Court is one of the prostitute’s most costly and demanding pimps. Because of the courts, prostitution prices are high. The legal system makes the poor man struggle to pay for - in some cases - the best sex he will ever get.

Without money, how could an ugly, old man have sex with a new, beautiful young woman when he wants to?

Often, when a judge successfully fines prostitutes, his own mistress’s career is secure for another day.

Bars are where lonely people find lonely people and their inhibitions can be drowned by the same vehicle. If you drink, you may dull your hang-ups, morals and inhibitions. But, you will also dull your senses and sex drive. You cannot heighten sex by drinking. You may dull your hang-ups and feel that you are sexier. In a young man, booze may dull his senses so that he lasts longer. For an older man - probably not. For some uptight ladies, it may help drown any guilt.

The mind, through healthy feelings and emotional intensity, is the primary sex organ. Impotence or premature-ejaculation is caused by not having the ability to accept what is currently going on. Sometimes fantasies that we saw on the screen or read in books are now being lived out. The excitement can be so intense, we cannot relax enough to perform. Like during an accident, we may be perfectly calm, but, really we are very excited.

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Most men feel that performance is a must. You gotta perform! You gotta perform! The commitment that you must perform can freeze you up emotionally so that you cannot relax enough to flow with and enjoy what’s going on. A man feels incapable within himself and goes into an emotional downer. He may choose liquor instead of lick her to be his escape. With liquor - he may find his “downer” worsened.

A woman who socially behaves like an alcoholic gets none of my time.

A positive sense of humor is the emotional system’s best ally.

Romantically, some men turn off to women who think like men – and vice versa.

Having sex is giving physical, sexual and emotional pleasure. During sex, hookers fake the emotional. Hooking focuses on trading or selling. Her time is money: “Get it up, get it in, get it on, get it off and get out!” True giving of anything is without expectation. Trading and selling always demands expectation. Illegal hooking is trading sex for un-taxable dollars. If sex was a taxable service - surprise! - sex would be legal. Check out Nevada, USA. Legal hooking is trading for social gratuities, a legal contract, and a committed life-sentence.

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Regardless of the macho image for men of: “He makes it with every woman he wants” and the: “I would never do anything like that” southern bell image, for every (heterosexual) man, there is a woman. Sexually healthy human beings need sex and do have sex physically and emotionally. People who complain about sex should see a doctor or have an affair.

Morality (the attempt to control what’s right and what is wrong) of selfishness is only in the eye of the beholder. Reality is reality. Reality makes no moral judgment; only people do.

Many things that we are brainwashed by and have shoved down our throats ate taught by the Bible. We are also programmed by creeds, traditions, oaths, marital and parental jealousy, school idealism and dogma.

A puritanical, prudish mother may share her programmed dogma: “I only want my daughter to have sex with her husband for marriage, future, family and babies and old age security. Actually, she is to engage in sex only for the purpose of having children. Surely, my daughter would never do anything so rude.” (Edited)

This old fashioned, idealistic, fantasy-prone mother still lives in the dark ages, believes in bad dogma and probably worships idols and saints.

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However, many cultures, religions and social customs still have these hang-ups and stupid morals. 

Chances are, the young girl's mother's mother quoted the same dogma that she does - and - in reality, neither she nor her mother lived by that dogma. Often, that “blessed first-child" was so eager for life that it came out of the vagina-express months pre-mature. 

God does not exist - but, the belief in god certainly does exist. After my research, my short time as a licensed, ordained clergy, and my human behavior study, I honestly have no evidence of any supernatural, know-it-all, Hell-judging God. If you buy into one of a person’s beliefs - what the Hell - you may as well buy them all.

It's my judgment that most religious believers, concerning reality, have their feet planted firmly in mid-air.

Do you know even one Christian who proves to be a “realist”? Does he or she believe in virgin birth or talking snakes and donkeys or that many dead corpses rose out of their graves in a town? Can you or will you define “realist”? 

All religions are man-made. Most morals are made and valued by selfish, jealous and possessive people.

If a person is to be happy, he or she has to feel emotionally free (unaccountable time). Free alone or free with a partner. Free to love., to have confidence in his or her freedom. Love is not truly given if it is expected – or demanded. It is taken. The giver may feel robbed.

Moral pressure forces dumb mistakes towards marriage.

If you believe that “marriages are made in Heaven”, then, your know-it-all, in control, God’s batting average really sucks!

Marriage is the first legal step towards divorce.

What are the differences in a modern-day marriage contract and an 1840 bill-of-sale that identifies who owns a slave.

Mississippi was the last US state to ratify the anti-slavery law in - would you believe - 1995? Don’t believe me or any other man. Check it out for yourself.

Do modern marriage contracts impose legal forms of human possession and slavery within them; whereby, in the United States of America - one human being is legally owned by another? What would the US Supreme Court decision be on this legal issue?

Hummm. I personally thought this over. I decided that I would never sign a long-term legal contract requiring my accountable time.

Las Vegas, where I live, claims to be the marriage capital of the United States.

Fiction: “John” took a table and two chairs downtown where couples get their marriage licenses. While a bride waited in the long line, the groom was summoned to be interviewed at the table. The groom was presented and explained the legal contract to be signed there and then. Once signed, John could legally sue the new groom for half of the possessions he accumulated from this day forward and the agreement made John legally entitled to half his future income for life. The groom jumped up and angrily announced that he would never sign such a stupid deal.

That is exactly what all agree to when they sign their marriage license.

Doesn't every legal marriage license contain a "built-in lawsuit" called divorce? 

Statistically, targeting men and women from 20 to 30 years old, during those 10 years, who do you think are more social - married or single people? Who has more sex? "Forsaking all others" restricts social and sexual intercourse.

Marriage is probably the most prejudice and discriminatory legal institution in existence.

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If an individual is a 10 on a 10 scale appearance-wise and has the vibes of 3, a rocky road and a cliff lies ahead. 10 on a 10 scale vibes will be remembered and valued for a much longer time.

“Mastership”

I am the master of my life. I have developed a personal mental-emotional system toolbox. I adjust my mental-emotional system with my accumulated tools. I am my own “emotion mechanic”. I perform my own “Emotional Surgery” (the title of my second book). Even as a therapist, I do not carry anyone else’s toolbox. I do encourage that individuals perceive, invent and build their own mental-emotional tools for their own use. The tools that I put and keep in my toolbox are emotionally “lighter-than-air” as they do not socially restrict me or anyone else. They are designed to lift me and all who are around me.

I like and value my “unaccountable time”. I conform, adhere to and obey enforceable laws and restrictions. “Unaccountable time” is what makes me King of my world. Someone who resents your being King or Queen of your world, probably will prove not to be a friend.

Rank can not exist between true friends.

Life, as we perceive it, exists. Your life, in reality, exists. Your self-awareness proves to you that you exist. Life owes you no happiness. You must learn to be happy. You must work at being happy. You must earn your happiness. You must have knowledge of your social tools so that you can work effectively at being happy. If you know what you do not want, if you successfully avoid what you do not want, this assists in your being happy. Your choice of social / emotional tools is decided by you and for you.

Like it or not, upon coming an adult, you are legally the master of your life. Your deciding to like your mastership / adulthood is an important tool. As a master / adult, your law-abiding behavior does not require another’s approval. If somebody tells you that, your behavior does require their approval; they are telling you that they want to control you. They may try to control you but the best they can do, in reality, is to assist you in controlling yourself. If you decide to have a doctor perform surgery on you - you control your health - the doctor just assists you in controlling your health.

Accept others the way they are because you are the master of your life. Careful now. If you do not treat others as the masters of their lives, you automatically lose your mastership - just another perspective / lighter-than-air tool, for a toolbox. Whether or not you put tools that you perceive in your toolbox is nobody’s business but yours - proving that it is your life and that you are the master of it.   

However, a high percentage of stupid is stubborn…

Music: Positive, negative and neutral effects on the nervous system that effects each receptor individually. A popular piece of music may provide a reaction like a common denominator.

“Lovemaking”

If a man makes love to a woman physically, he just might end up with a tired woman.

If he makes love to her physically and sexually, he may end up with a tired woman who s no longer horny.

If he makes love to her physically, sexually, and emotionally, he just might end up with a tired, no longer horny, and an emotionally satisfied, happy woman.

Halleluiah! Got some sinning to do! Where’s my Levitra!

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Sex becomes to you what your mind projects it to be. You may get 100% on a sexual philosophy exam and fail drastically in performance. Work sharing sex emotionally and you may become and awesome lover – not a moving manikin.

Ladies, if you give your best and he doesn’t get it up, relax, it’s not your fault.

Guys, if after giving your best, she grabs her vibrator, relax, it’s not your fault.

Blame is the name of a no-win game. You were not put on planet Earth to please even one other person - and as sure as Hell does not exist - you can not please everybody.

Tradition: Commitment patterns, evolved in highly persecuted societies, by insecure, fearful people, reacting together against their environment. In a free society, it is like living in a cave. Ideologies, religions, morals, and cultures push commitments to the death as a way of life. Traditional groups react to a free society as labor unions do to independents / scabs.

 “I can’t” is due to physical incapacity.

“I won’t” is do to emotional restriction. Many times socially when a person says “I can’t” they really mean “I won’t”. “My mental-emotional condition will not let feel comfortable in doing it.”

As long as you won’t – you can’t.

Test it.

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Fat, like any large ownership, has to be maintained. High maintenance! Eating, sleeping, hot, cold, comfort, relaxation, apathy and laziness may become a very big part of a fat person’s lifestyle. Perceive all the “accountable time” a fat person has to sacrifice by being fat. As a high-powered salesman has little time for administration, so do socially creative people have little time for maintenance. As long as an individual has in his or her mind a self-image of being fat, they will remain fat. Happy, fat people have had the ability to accept the fact that they want to be fat.

Over a lifetime - fat can be a large-ass prison of one's accountable time!

The best proven and successful tool for me is: I “FAST” for a few days when my tolerance to be fat fails.

I know: You'll probably say: It’s not safe! It’s not healthy! It’s not easy! It’s not fun! It’s not acceptable.

I agree. But, I also have learned: You cannot defeat what you defend.

Reputation: Judged habits that make up a person’s moral and legal character.

Prison incarceration requires accountable time 24 / 7. In society accountable prisons exist in the minds of restrictive believers.

Morals seem to be more plentiful among poor people – because, poor people tend to have more fears. Poor people’s morals are mostly hypocritically compromised by money – or other tangible advantages.  

If you give an asshole a million dollars – you will probably end up with an asshole with a million dollars. Don’t become discouraged, he probably won’t have it long.

Should you get a large sum of money, you won’t keep it. Why?

Every emergency possible will happen to every family member, friend and neighbor you have.

Your feeling could include:

“I am over due to have fun!” These urges will eliminate wealth fast- especially when you take along family and “friends”. 

“I don’t feel rich unless I show that I have the power to blow it.”

“I’ve got to gamble or invest all of it so I can really get rich!”

“I didn’t feel that I should pay taxes on wealth – after all how did they help?”

“I needed a new airplane and my dog needed dentures – beause his dentures didn’t fit the first time.”

People who scream for “equality” feel inferior.

Jealousy is feeling that another can take what you emotionally have from you. One cannot lose what one never owned. You cannot own nor possess another human being. The best one can do is rent feelings with an emotional lease that can become too expensive and that can always be broken.

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When you think hate and murder, society enjoys a soap-opera and you are the only one who suffers. When you act out your hate with murder, social law punishes you. In prison, you may account to your government 24 / 7 for the rest of your life.

Suicide: Some people commit suicide when they realized they have freedom (unaccountable time) from sickness, horrible beliefs, bad authoritative models and being frustrated by not getting their way.   

When your US Government claims that all the men and women who died in war died for your freedom, that’s a lie. They all died to maintain the US Government’s freedom, (unaccountable time) and power to control you and me. Have you noticed that the government is building social and legal infrastructure that keeps restricting it citizen’s unaccountable time? The government does not want you to live by unaccountable time. Time is the sea we swim in. You are to account to and pay the government throughout the time you exist.

All authority outside of nature is “assumed authority”. Presidents, in and out of office, prove that.

When you understand a person’s emotional fears, you may better understand his or her emotional motives.

Sexual athletes, like other great athletes, have some fear of being inadequate and practice to continually improve themselves. Practice does not make perfect. Perfect practice makes perfect. You don’t have to be perfect to have great sex. You do not have to be the best. What goes on in their mental-emotional mind while having sex with you is their experience. Just be you. Having great sex is a mental-emotional-physical art-form.

Human flaws: One stroke of an artist’s brush may appear distasteful, even hideous. But it, along with a combination of others, may be responsible for a masterpiece.

“Psycho-Bitches from Hell” often make memorable sex partners. (Talk about wild rides!) Experiencing is not writing the script.

Sex is for fun. Sex is the most fantastic adult sport in the world. If you are going to play, you must learn the game and how to play it safely. Try to pick partners who will provide a win-win out come. People, who only take sex serious, are not the most fun partners. Save knocking up a woman for after you are married. Vasectomies and getting tubes-tied are controllable safeguards in the sport. The genetic “need” (the addiction to a feeling) for variety is a powerful one and a dangerous one. Select carefully - as some sexually transmitted diseases will kill you. That is a reality. Like playing poker, there is no crystal ball as to what the results of the game will be. Yet, players love the game. One successful poker rule is: If while playing, you feel that you have been dealt a bad hand - toss it in for another. To avoid certain realities is wise and necessary to remain happy. In sex, like war, tactics are only good as long as they work. Knowledge is mandatory but, having successful and safe sex is an art form, not a science.  

When you feel that you are the best, you are under a lot of pressure. When you are no longer expected to perform, you can relax. Most pressure is self-imposed.

Insecurity is fear, due to lack of knowledge and understanding. Insecurity may be responsibility for the inability to accept things the way they are, which leads to emotional discomfort.

An attack is hostile action designed to eliminate what I don’t want or to change something to the way I want it.

Ah “emotions”: do wants / don’t want and their intensities. What would human life be without them? How much of the human animal’s emotional system do you think is influenced by its genes? When an animal behaves based on its instinct, what does that mean? What is old-fashioned instinctive behavior? How does an ally cat know that it wants to eat mice. How does a bird know how to fly? How does a woman’s body know when to ovulate? Hummm, could our active and shutdown genes have something to do with how we live our lives? If so, how do we figure out what our genes are telling us? Could our genes communicate with our conscious minds through our feelings? Na! God rules us with His will. Thy will be done. But, because we only have one ego to interpret God’s messages, what if our one ego misinterprets our many animal genes to be our one god?

If space is considered man’s final frontier, I view that the study and understanding of life’s genes is mankind’s most important frontier. I view that mankind’s next major genetic and medical breakthrough will be - Genetic Medicine!

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Confusion: Not having enough information about something to know how you feel about it. Not having the ability to accept the information you have. Confusion is many things - one of which - is a time of learning.

Cherish times that you are confused. It is the time best capable of learning.

An answer means nothing without the specific question.

A good lover gives off good vibes, has a high sexual IQ, intense emotions, high sexual aptitude and most of all the desire to help you get off every physical and emotional way you can.

Respect: An expected payment of emotional dues.

Respect should be earned – not assumed nor expected.

Eyes absorb physical beauty. Vibes absorb emotional beauty. Store-manikins and most skinny runway models, display physical beauty only.

Goal: I want something that isn’t.

Problem: I don’t want something that is.

Do wants and don’t wants are the sources of all goals and problems.

Love problem? No love - no problem.

Secret: To separate yourself from your “problem” - BY TIME AND DISTANCE - is an effective solution to your problem.

Depression: Emotional paralysis.

One’s social world is a reflection of his moods, hang-ups, principles, and attitudes.

Because mutual and compatible feelings stay together the longest, you can tell - and others can tell - much about you by who you share your time with.

Some people find themselves bored - because they’ve been around themselves all day.

Are you bored? Get out! And socialize.

Most marriages are over-rated.

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Divorce may be a traumatic parting of the ways. Traditional divorce may consist of two scavengers, and maybe their teams, digging at each other’s shortcomings. Divorce from love and good feeling first comes in the mind. Then, it is a matter of time for it to become legal. Divorce is good instead of living a lie.

Children need parents who are married - to each other.

The human population of the Earth looks like maggots eating a rotting celestial body. It is past time to reduce the rate of production of children. Your “genetic”, maternal instinct / paternal instinct drive to reproduce yourself, if not controlled, will eat up the planet. You may not care but your future generations will ultimately suffer when the Earth’s resources are dried up. Could a vasectomy after one child begin a successful future for mankind on planet Earth? If you are pissed at this suggestion, you might consider that your desire to spread your genes over the planet may promote the human being’s - and other animal’s - potential demise on planet Earth.   

For something to live - things must die. For something to live well - more things must die.

Fat people probably “love” this one. They dare not realize that more things must die for them.

People sometimes feel that they can succeed with emotional abstractions. Bullshit! True abstractions cannot be recalled nor reproduced. Absolutes are the emotional diamonds. Their substance weathers emotional storms. Abstract sand blows away with every emotional breeze. Scientific absolutes make electrical products, space vehicles and it is because you can recall unchanging principles, in time, that work. Concerning reality, social absolutes, not faith, provide smooth running a emotional system.

Obeying the 613 Biblical commandments - today - will put a believer on Death Row. When is the last time you killed a non-virgin girl, an unruly son, or a gay man. You are not on Death Row - because you have not obeyed these insane Old Testament / Torah commandments.

To write those insane commandments and to obey them is mankind’s animal genes at work. As wild dogs have been domesticated, so is mankind slowly becoming civilized. 

I don’t know, though. George W. Bush, a genetic animal, did recently attack, kill and injure about a million Iraqis based on his lies and deception. Like, Pol Pot and Adolf Hitler, did Bush give in to the temptation of his animal genes? Did our animal genes try to stop him?

 The “best” relationship with an emotional sadist does not exist.

When you love something. It is special.

When you are truly in love with someone, it is sacred.

It depends on how intensely you are addicted to the feeling.

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Exposure dilutes any tradition, thought or theory. Love can be diluted, also.

When your country is defending in war, you love your country. When your is in the hospital, you love your dog. When your dad wakes you up to feed the ducks, you hate the damned ducks.

The difference between rape and seduction is giving consent or not. You may spoil a rapist whole day should you say yes.

Most veteran truck drivers are probably the most courteous drivers in the world.

Aerobatic (stunt) pilots are probably the most aware pilots in an air-show. (Many of my flying hours in the Pitts S2-A were spent inverted.) Brain surgeons are probably the most bold yet the most cautious of all surgeons.

Courteous, cautious, and aware emotional systems produce the happy veterans of the world.

People, who live in a fantasy world of faith and belief, often become traumatized when confronted with reality.

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Commitment: A pledge contract r crusade to contribute or account to an agenda for a period of time.

Parasites love to be committed to.

Love parasite: “I’ll love you as long as you serve me – on my terms”. “If you really love me, you will obey me.” “I want you to live by my values in your life with me being the center of your values.”

A wealthy televangelist and his wife were flying in their private jet at 28,000 feet when he turned to her and asked, ”Would you still love me if I weren’t rich?” Tears came in to her eyes and as her makeup began to run, she took his hands in hers, looked sadly into his eyes and said sincerely, “Of course. I would always love you …  I’d miss you.”    

If you don’t see humor in some of this stuff – you’ll hate it.

Even though a person is emotionally happy, he or she is going to get pissed off on occasion. With their social tools - they may quickly dig out of their emotional pit. 

Why people lie. We are all selfish. An admitted selfish may be a turnoff. A hidden selfish cannot be judged. A hidden selfish found out may be judged a lie.

Rather than lie to someone, tell him or her it is none of their business.

When the US government lies and / or withholds facts and information from the American public, they use the - shut up and do what’s expected code words - “National Security”. That is supposed to make you and me cringe in “might makes right” fear, and to let the insane heads of the US government do whatever they want to us or to the rest of the planet. As a retired reserve military officer, I am a patriot to the United States of America, as per my oath to the Constitution, I stand against all enemies foreign and domestic. I tend to stand up against our own rogue US government when it does not operate in accordance to the US Constitution. President George W. Bush lost my support, patriotism, and loyalty when he made a pre-empted attack on Iraq. He has ordered assassinations in other countries. He has imprisoned people without charges. He has violated the privacy or US citizens. Those violations broke many US Constitutional laws and international laws. The US Constitution does not allow those illegal acts. Slick government lawyers have tried to spin those insane, might makes right acts as being legal. Now, President Barak Obama has done a 180, and slipped right into Bush and Cheney’s shoes – assassinations and all. Arlen Specter has now publicly turned from Republican to Democrat. Barak H. Obama has, in action, turned from Democrat to Republican. The campaign speeches that got Obama elected and won him the Nobel Peace Prize have turned out to be mostly lies. “National Security” my ass. I’m mad as Hell and I dare protest.

When a good surgeon sees a cancer, he tries to cuts it all out.

Maybe, eventually, a properly programmed, humanity first, computer could best run the leadership of planet Earth. Human - “God guided” - leadership has produced an incredible body count throughout recorded history. As long as the all-powerful International Bankers cannot own, program or control the one-world-leader computer, humanity may experience a more peaceful existence.

I am glad that I am getting old. Pass the “Depends”.  

I am obviously more categorically insane now than I was 30 years ago - but - I still feel more like I do now than I did before!

Divorce: Love at first sight - hate or neutrality at last sight.

A hassle can be insecure, negative emotions designed to seek a wanted, positive reassurance. An insecure romantic may cause hassles often to reassure himself or herself as to their importance. Their insecure self-image makes them a hassle looking for an opportunity to happen.

It is obvious that the US Government triggers my “hassle” button. One can know a lot of this stuff and still be guilty of it. Nevertheless, concerning my Government protest, I know what I am doing and why I am doing it. To object to wrong things that damage many is never wrong.

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When a lady smiles and says that she does not trust you, could she mean that, with you, she does not trust herself?

Offer a feisty proposition to someone not attracted to you and you may feel rejection. Offer the same proposition to someone attracted to you and you may get lucky. Vibes! In the social arena, what would we do without them?

Experience religions. Put into your emotion bank the positive riches and with the spade of common sense, bury the cancerous guilt, greed, envy, hate, possessiveness and jealousy the god of that religion depicts.

Other than the myth of creation, can you think of one thing that the Old Testament Biblical God did good for someone without hurting someone else?

The more you commit to one thing, the less you experience. Experience the emotional trip of life instead of being bogged down to committed traffic.

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War

The bottom line to war is combat.

Combat, purely, is no more than kill or be killed.

The armed forces’ sole purpose is to train people to kill or die.

Branches and elements may be in support of the role of killing and dying.

That is the reality.

The morality lies in politics.

War results when the politicians fail.

The politicians determine how, where and when we kill or die.

War is the result when the politicians want something that is not - or they do not want something that is.

Politicians want things their way and they want control.

We, the armed forces, are the power that through “might makes right” forces things to go their way.

If we kill, we are heroes.

If we die, we are banished to an abstract place called Heaven or Hell. (Finis)

One of the 12 posters.

Competition: Minor fantasies of killing or being killed.

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In society, there are leaders and there are followers.

Followers can relate to puppets.

Leaders project energy, power and control.

Followers respond to energy, power and control.

Successful people face rejection and continue. Failures withdraw / quit.

It is far better for you to quit than to have a feeling that is addicted to the wrong game.

Intelligence is categorical. Genetic talents are categorical. If you fail at a game long enough, you may realize that you are playing the wrong game for you. Find another that is more suitable. Failure is an excellent opportunity to better get to know yourself. Not everyone can genetically be Michael Jordan, Bill Gates or Tiger Woods. Who’d like to have Tiger’s sex-life. If Tiger were not married, committed exclusively “until death do they part”, would his multi-faceted sex-life be ok with you? If not - why not? Take a moment to better know yourself. Is what you think compatible with how you feel?

Stuttering:

Could your stuttering result when - what you think can not be expressed effectively - due to how you feel?

Does your stuttering occur when your mental / emotional systems are competing?

Does your stuttering occur when your thoughts and feelings are not in sync?

Do you stutter while you sing? If not - why not?

Does following music help you or make a difference?

Do you stutter when you speak while “under” hypnosis? (Finis)

One may see his success a god-blessed or his failure god-damned, no in between. But, isn’t that reality, the way he wants it? Neutrality is like non-existence. It pledges no identity.

The good or the damage you do today can be forgotten tomorrow. What did you do good or bad 5 years ago? Experiences are mostly forgotten. Experiences written about last as long as they are read. Will any benefit by your experiences after you are gone?

THE WRITER

Before I was 36, I had no interest to write or in becoming a writer. Confusing thoughts started coming to me and I wrote them to see if they had any meaning. This website contains most of what that amounted to.

So, you don’t think that you are a writer – or that you ever could be a writer? I vaguely recall a story about some famous writer back in the 1800s. He went to a famous university to publicly-speak about becoming a writer. It was raining. He stepped down from his horse and carriage. He entered the building. He stepped up to the podium on the stage. Hundreds of quiet students had their note-pads ready. His coat was soaked and his hat was dripping rainwater. He paused. There was dead silence. He looked down at his audience and said: “So, you want to be a writer? Go home … and write.”

He turned and left the building. (Finis)

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Success may yield false friends and true enemies.

Honesty and frankness makes you vulnerable. Everybody takes shots at giants. People favor the underdog but they follow the top dog.

In a dog-sled race, every dog behind the lead-dog has the same view.

Love is a special feeling of an imagined fulfillment of emotional needs.

Loyalty: Depriving many for the sake of one. Romantics love it and demand it.

Romantics and other social-vampires in life demand that you become tender so that they can better consume you.

Reality appears as cynicism to the idealists.

A social recluse has no place to go because there is no place he or she wants to go.

“Let’s just be friends.” A friend is someone who is close enough to use you when he or she wants to.

“Maybe” always means: “No now - but - I’ve got the option - and you don’t.”

You may remain happier if you accept a “maybe” as a “no”, and move on.

Confusion is not knowing or accepting your own feelings or the feelings of others. Life is a mystery because of your confusion concerning your future. Ignorance is the fascination. If the outcome of a relationship were absolutely known, understood, and accepted – the relationship could produce a dull period-of-time.

Your boredom is mostly located between your ears.

Many marriages and relationships fail due to familiarity. Actually, familiarity may be responsible for why most of the passion has past.

Platonic relationships are mostly relationships without emotion.

Some emotional problems are like games.

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Often, people who cry and bitch about a problem, really do not want a solution to their problem, because they feel if they knew the outcome of the game, there would no need to play it.

Did you ever wonder what “And, they lived happily ever after” meant?  

I could suggest some feisty scenarios but they may shock the kids.

People hate it when the one who cries about the problem proves to be the source of the problem.

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People who cannot handle reality prefer to deal in abstractions. Absolutes are the tools of reality. Good judgment and confident decisions seem to clear up most problems.

Competing wills: If an authoritative ego tries to break your will to make you obey his or her will, there may be a simple solution. Take away the game. To successfully separate yourself, by time and distance, from the controlling ego, may be an effective solution. It is more important for you to be “non-dependent” than it is for you to be “independent” concerning this ego.

Many characteristics of an ego and a god are synonymous. “I am the value” - “I am the authority” - “I am entitled”. An Ego created its God to supercharge the Ego – to make itself more easily heard and to become more of a consequence. Superstitious and fearful believers are gullible enough to be hypnotized to do the Ego’s / God’s bidding. To worship any Ego and / or his God (fictional or not) is to be a slave. If you do not want to be a slave, do not behave like one.   

An individual who is depressed, hung up and uptight, will continue to be as long as he (or she) reinforces it. Bitching is a habit. He has to stop bitching to himself and others to break the habit.

An individual who is emotionally disordered with bitterness will always claim justification for his bitterness, Bitterness leads to social vengeance. Miserable people sometimes do not know nor care if they make others miserable.

By the way, who was the most miserable, jealous, angry, vengeful and murderous “character” (fictional or not) in the entire Bible?

God.

There exists Biblical C&V evidence - if you believe what the Bible documents.

Go to “The God Murders” at: thegodmurders.com

If you disagree, who do you view to be the most miserable, jealous, angry, vengeful and murderous “character” (fictional or not) in the entire Bible?

Can you produce any Bible C&V evidence to prove / support your claim?

I view that the God of the Bible (fictitious or not) is not a good God and that the Bible is not a good model for humanity. It is time that mankind became civilized enough to retire this God model to the Smithsonian Institute Library as the worst model in history for mankind.

Do you think that I just won over the “Bible-Belt” with that view?

Ok, don’t believe me or anyone else. Read the Bible for yourself and see if any of the controversial C&Vs jump off the page for you. When I first was a licensed, ordained minister, I did not see them either. Then I came across a book: “Religion Without the Bible” by Paul Winchell. Because I had met Paul once, I read it. My Gawd! All those controversial Bible C&Vs! I was hurt, shocked, depressed! God could not be wrong! I could not be wrong! I bought a huge, big -print Bible. I read and highlighted it cover to cover. I did a book report and shared my findings on: thegodmurders.com website. I cross referenced the Torah, the KJV and the Catholic Bibles. All basically documented the same horrifying facts. I stopped being a licensed, ordained minister. Would you rather I were a hypocrite?

Rejection: Refusing to acknowledge or accept another’s identity or his desires.

“The Sniper: “One Shot - One Kill”. A US military sniper is trained to kill other human beings for the United States Government. The trained motivation is: If you kill him, you are preventing him from killing your buddy. By killing him, you are saving our troops. The triggered sniper’s King Kong genes shout out in murderous rage: “I’m gonna git some!!! I can kill another maggot human being. I just need permission and they are all dead men.”

Bambi

As a child of 4, my young genes raged to kill things. I got my first Bee Bee gun and murdered a godzillion birds and frogs – well anything alive, small and that moved. I felt elation with each shot – disappointment with each miss and no conscience nor regret when I saw each target go through its death-throw. The dead were trophies. I played good guy / bad guy, cowboys and indians - those injuns never had a chance - and I single-handedly, won the war against the “Krauts” and the “Japs”. I demonized them as I fantasized killing them while shooting trees. We lived in the country. My addiction to my feeling to kill things grew and I got shotguns and rifles. During the 1950s I killed bushel-baskets full or ducks, geese, rabbits and in 1961, I stopped after killing 61 squirrels. Stopped hell! The season was over. 

When I was 13, I shot my first Bambi. He ran from me. I shot my 16 gauge shotgun slug through him and he dropped. I was elated! I ran up to see him lying there – with his head held high. He looked at me with kindness, understanding and forgiveness. I bawled. I shot him again to get him out of his misery. His head dropped. Then, it rose again. My Gawd, I saw love in his eyes. I bawled and bawled. Then with each heartbeat, his head jerked slowly and gently to the ground. He lay there, stopped breathing and his eyes turned cloudy. I bawled. My dad yelled Did you get him, son? Yes, I bawled.

I killed my second Bambi 20 years later near Solvang, California. I was at a higher elevation when Bambi walked into a clearing following his doe. Using my 8 mm German Mauser, it was about a 300-yard shot with open sights. At that distance, the deer’s silhouette was much smaller than the front sight. The first shot, the bullet hit the ground behind Bambi, just over his back. He just stood there. I dropped the sight-picture slightly, lightly squeezed the trigger and put him down. After running the 300 yards, down hill, I pulled my 357 Colt Python Magnum and rapid-fired 3 bullets into his brain. I did not want to watch him suffer.

I joined a Los Angeles combat pistol team. We shot human silhouettes for score. With assorted shotguns, I shot trap, skeet, bunker-trap and duck-tower. Once actor Robert Stack and I were shooting bunker trap. The clay pigeons go out about half again as fast as regular trap. Robert, when younger, had been a national skeet champion. When he saw my Browning Auto-Five, he lit up. “Gary, you have got to let me shoot your gun. I cut my teeth on an Auto-Five. Here, shoot either one of my guns.” Bob had a $16,000 Beretta and an $18,000 Perrotse. He loved shooting the Browning. Due to his superior gun, I loved beating Robert Stack for the round.   

What’s my killing point? As a hypnotherapist, I have become sensitive that my genes have evolved, changed, lit up and shut down throughout my life. One does not scratch his ass without a feeling. I view that your feelings are your two-way communication with your instinctive, inherent, influential, behavior molding genes. I view that we all have the same animal genes and that when certain genes are active / lit up - feelings rage with emotional intensity. When our others genes become weak or dormant – the intensity of their feelings shut down. I view that during my genetic life-cycle, my triggered, lit-up-genes strongly influenced my feelings and I behaved as I did. My “Genetic-Love-Model”, my sexual appetite for variety, my lack of paternal instinct and other factors, I attribute to my genetic makeup and its evolution. Yes, there is nature and there is nurture. Environment does trigger genes. Many of my genes are shutting down as I age. I no longer lust to murder animals. In fact you could not pay be to kill another deer. The intense desire to kill animals is gone. I now personally feel negative towards killing much of anything. I know that we must eat. But, I am not killing them. I recognize now that my genetic nature had the killer profile to become an excellent sniper. I would not kill another human being unless we were on the defense at war. Then, I would willfully activate those genes / feelings and become the professional killing machine that I was militarily trained to be.  

I joined the Army National Guard in 1961 when I was a senior in high school at 17. Viet Nam kicked up about 1964. Johnson lied about “The Gulf of Tonkin” attack to get the US into a shoot and bomb war. Eisenhower’s warning about the military industrial complex was starting to play out. Most of the Army National Guard and the Army Reserve were not activated for Viet-Nam because the US Government had all the willing “cannon-fodder” it needed due to the existing draft.

I was a sergeant E-5 in 1965 and volunteered to go active for Nam. They said that because I was a reservist, they would have me go active as an E-3 PFC. I was used to leading men. I passed. I got my commission in 1969 and retired in 1983. If my killer genes had their way in 1965, there probably would have been a lot more Viet-Nam causalities – including myself. How do Americans feel about the Vietnamese today? Why did the United States of America kill so many Vietnamese? Why are we still killing Iraqis after we have killed and injured over a million Iraqis? 

“Thoughts of a Social Layman” is a collection of thoughts and perspectives of a career member of the US military reserves, a licensed-ordained-minister (turned educated Atheist) a hypnotherapist, a writer and a SAG actor.

In 1977, I joined the Screen Actor’s Guild (SAG). Since I graduated from high school in 1961, I flunked out of college twice. I did get an associate degree in agricultural engineering. I never used that degree. I sold insurance and was in management for a large life insurance company for 10 years from 1965-75. During the company reorganization, an agency I was to manage, merged with another agency. I quit! I had not taken 2 vacations in 10 years. I did not realize how much I hated the business until some time after I left it. I had some money saved. A friend in Hollywood offered me a chance to be an extra in a major motion picture. I did it and I got hooked. I don’t think I had a profound thought until I was about 32 around 1976. Then, the flood-gate opened and suddenly profound thoughts were overwhelming. I wrote many, which became the texts of my two books: “Thoughts of a Social Layman” and “Emotional Surgery” that I published in 1980 and 1982. 

By signing with a couple non-union extra casting companies. I did 26 films as an extra. While playing a cop on “Man from Atlantis” (Solo Productions) the director gave me some lines. I got my SAG card. Due to SAG regulations, I could no longer do non-union extra work. So, I got a theatrical agent, a commercial agent and attended acting workshops to learn how to act. My biggest motivation was to stop being terrified every time I performed a script or improved on camera.

I tried to be hypnotized a few times to see where all these profound thoughts came from. I went to The Hypnosis Motivation Institute in the early 1980s to learn how to BE hypnotized. Nobody could get me under. I did not understand hypnosis. I enrolled in the institute training to become a hypnotherapist. During the first class, we observed some hypnotic inductions. The instructor requested a volunteer to hypnotize another classmate. With my acting experience, I quickly volunteered. The subject dropped like a lead pipe. Over the next few years of schooling and internship, I became a hypnotherapist. I have assisted select clients for over 30 years.

In a 1982 audition, I was selected for a California bank commercial with Gary Grubbs as my scene partner. The commercial won a “Clio” - the “Oscar” of commercials. It surprisingly launched my recognition to a point of personal discomfort. Gary Grubbs went on to do some fine and memorable work in Los Angeles. Upon seeing his performances, I would call him on occasion and tell him how proud I was of him. I was invited to an awards ceremony because someone put me in for an award. A video company had us say a few words on camera with a hand microphone. After I spoke my sincere gratitude for my statue, the actress behind me said she would be more comfortable if she were interviewed. The producer asked me if I would interview her. I was hired to be the interviewer for many shows over the next few years. My celebrity photo gallery link is on my website at:

The sleight taste of celebrity was enough for me. I left Los Angeles and to live in Las Vegas and became much happier being anonymous. I had tasted the “prison” that celebrities were in. Men like Clark Gable, Paul Newman, Brad Pitt and others could never life by “unaccountable time” while in public. They cannot move around freely without fans and curiosity seekers picking at them. In public, celebrities have “power” but no “freedom”. For me, it was fun for a while. The women were awesome. But, I got over myself and preferred anonymity in Las Vegas. I have taught acting workshop and on occasion, I still attend one because I still love to act out cold-readings. But, to memorize and to act them out - - - forget about it. On occasion, I am asked to speak on topics that are on my “The God Murders” website. Because it is my material, I do it … on occasion. 

When attending class reunions or other public forums, I am often asked about my acting career. My usual comment is, “I am no actor and I have 50 films to prove it.” I may have heard that somewhere. Due to the approximate number of film and TV shoots, I have used it.

Enough! I do hope that book II is better.

Gossip: To speak of a questionable moral event; to seek out a reaction to weigh against your own.

Society is purgatory or paradise for the impressionable.

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Love: A consciousness of illogical feelings. If another’s feelings binds and holds you without your consent, his or her love is called your sacrifice.

The difference between rape and seduction is consent. True rape cannot take place with consent. While married, does law consider that consent is assumed?

Absolutes can shatter fantasies and dreams.

Throughout history, love has made certain women lose their heads. How about the wives of Henry the VIII? Without “love”, certain women could have kept their heads.

As the body has a fluid called blood, the mind has an energy called love. How do they continually seem to replenish themselves?

Could it be in the genes?

Learn to give what affection you have without expectation and watch it grow. If you give it freely and not trade or sell, you will be free.

A one-man dog who acknowledges his master only, and will deal with no other, has little value to others in society. In society, a completely loyal individual to one person, especially of great attraction, may not be too positively popular due to the jealousy and envy of others.

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How to handle a masochist: If a person is truly happy in being miserable, sincerely rejoice I his misery.

Neutral, low intensity feelings are bore. Social intercourse seems to be enjoying or abusing the mind and body.

When a woman tells you that she wants a “platonic relationship”, it means that she wants to be neutral about you rather than be emotional with you. In essence, she does not feel or want to feel emotions towards you. It may be because you are not black, you are not tall, you are not rich, you are fat, you smoke, you smell. Whatever her reasons are, they are her reasons and she has a right to them – and you don’t. Get over yourself. There are numerous wonderful women on planet Earth who would want you and love you exactly the way you are – if you would only give them a chance. It is all in their genes.

Confidence: Knowing what I am doing and why I am doing it. It is a feeling that things are going my way and that I can handle things that are not.

An extrovert feels there are no strangers in his life.

An introvert feels that all are strangers.

Some forms of power are: Physical (strength / beauty), mental (intellectual), political, financial, sexual, and emotional.

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Apathy is the response to boredom. Boredom is neutral interest.

Courage is to face your fear with dignity.

Your misery is in direct proportion to your expectation.

When you are dealing with an individual with hidden jealousy, remember that he or she is wearing a mask between you and their tears. Their tears are inside because they hurt, they are mad. Things are going their way and they are selfish.

Jealousy sees no threat in old fossils.

An easy-going person prevents matters from going to extremes.

Thought: An abstract picture in the flow of time.

An invention was once a lie and unreal. Once successfully invented in reality, it was no longer a lie because it became real.

A believer tries to invent reality to suit himself. The believer wants to e the authority over the belief. The believer wants you to conform, support and obey his belief. Most personal beliefs, when tested, prove to be lies.

Prostitution verses marriage: Is she interested in the man or his cash box?

Loneliness: Being the only passenger on the train of life.

At the Hypnosis Motivation Institute (H.M.I.) on Monday nights, Hypnotherapists would have meetings with the Staff Psychologists to discuss our cases.

I found myself writing:

Loneliness: An attitude - of putting yourself on a pedestal or in a pit - armed with principles - surrounded by a mote of standards - head hanging in self-pity - watching others above or below - intentionally veering away.

Somehow, to me, that still seems very descriptive. How would you write about “loneliness”?

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A person who loves you will leave something in your possession just to feel attached.

“The God Complex” is for one to say that he is superior and that you have no right to have your own way. “The boss is never wrong and right or wrong, I’m the boss”. “I may not be always right but, I am never wrong”. “Me boss – you punk”. “It’s my way or the highway because I have more power than you - and hope you don’t like it”.

Separating yourself from this “boss” by time and distance may be your best solution. 

An insincere dieter cannot wait to lose weight when he or she has a full stomach.

Women are going to continue to face unwanted pregnancies. That proves to be a reality. The choice is to have it or to abort it. Anti-abortion people should give their address and receive the un-aborted children as they come, without choice, because that is exactly what they are demanding of the pregnant woman.

To demand sexually healthy human beings to abstain from sex is about as insane as worshipping Godzilla.

Flowing vibes may cause someone to say that he or she has known you forever - after just a few minutes. It could be in the genes.

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A social crutch for happiness: I’m only three days away at any time from my mistress.

The fastest way to come out of social depression is to allow anybody to be anything they want to be.

Being positive about hassles: At least I am getting plenty of practice handling them.

Suicide is performed by people so failure-ridden as to their goals, they feel they must be successful at something.  

People pay entertainers and dramatic actors to make them laugh and make them cry, make them mad and happy. Accepting the fact that they have these needs to be fulfilled, isn’t it understandable why they make society a constant soap-opera?

A sadist tries to promote fear, pain and hate in others to compliment the fear, pain and hate in himself.

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Poisoning others’ emotional systems feeds his poisoned emotional system. He wishes for others to drown in sorrow and pain as he has.

By allowing him to tear you down, you are allowing him to keep himself torn down. Help a sadist. Ignore him.

Your morals are only as consistent as your feelings towards them. Fear is the primary enforcer. If you abnormally hold the fear after maturity, you may experience an unhappy married or unmarried sex life.

Humor is a cure for tension.

Orgasm: Physical humor.

Confidence. The battle banner: Confidence is emotional strength and control. The more confident sometimes conceals his emotional weapons so the opponent puts his emotional weapons away. The lesser confidant usually backs down unless his torn emotional system desires further punishment. A confident opponent may cause fear in an insecure, emotional person.

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Most thinkers don’t like to be given answers. They like to be mind-provoked to find their own answers.

Most believers don’t like to be given answers. Most are already mind-set.

Guilt: Feeling liable for penalty or persecution. Nobody has the power to make you feel guilty. It is the condition of your own thoughts and many times false beliefs. Blame is the name of a no-win game.

Social-paths and psychopaths rarely feel guilty.

When a social-path or a psychopath comes to therapy, the result can be that they become a better social-path or psychopath.

If a person is bad, declare him selfish and see if it fits. If a person is good, declare him selfish and see if it fits. Selfish people perform great accomplishments.

If you fight like Hell of us, you are a hero. If you fight like Hell for them, you are a crazy fanatic.

Sometimes the simplest perspective gives the most profound meaning to the seasoned emotional system.

Two kinds of leaders are those who worry about their image and those who get the job done. One constantly looks over his shoulder, the other never does. One concentrates on looking good, the other concentrates on responsibility down through his subordinates. The latter experiences more success.  

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A social success becomes independently happy through courage and wisdom. A social failure becomes independently obstinate through fear and ignorance.

I expect the best in life to come to me because, although I am cautious to avoid what I know I don’t want, I am open and receptive to what I do want. Because I declare money and other riches good, every time I turn around, they come to me.

The amount of money another has may be an insult to your ideals, but if they are content, your ideals don’t much matter.

Every rope has two ends; everything you own is tied to you. Big ownership requires high maintenance. High maintenance eliminates unaccountable time.

Hoarding is one’s addiction to a feeling that one must accumulate selected things. Hoarding becomes a hobby or religion to some who are obsessed with maintaining their accumulation. Hoarding other hobbies take up unaccountable time. When an unrelated opportunity comes up, the redundant habit of hoarding often strips the individual of the new opportunity. On some level, they expect you to feel the same as they do concerning their accumulation, but they are possessive of it. If you threaten to take their junk to the dump, they will take it as if you threatened their very existence.

Love lifts, gives and frees, not restricts and condemns.

When somebody loves you, how much of it amounts to self-interest?

It is good to have emotional downers. Cherish your “down-time”. That is the precious time that you get to best discover yourself.

Morals are man-made rules designed to protect and safeguard what he wants.

Time: Thoughts and experiences of places and events. Time is the sea we swim in. Without experiencing some intensity of emotion concerning a thought, most thoughts are not remembered.

Past: Time thoughts have experienced with enough emotion intensity to be remembered.

Your memories may be different from others memories because your emotional intensity was different from theirs.

Future. Time that your “mind” (your mental-emotional-genetic system) has not yet experienced.

“Idiot-savant” talents have proven that gene (past life) memory contributes to current human behavior. In hypnosis, “Past Life Regressions” (PLR) may simply be the activation of gene memory. Feelings and visions surface for the client to interpret.

It has always amazed me what comes out of a PLR session. Sometimes a solution to the client’s problem surfaces for the client.

I view that the hypnosis process can put “Beta” (belief) on the back burner long enough for “Alpha Expansion” (thinking) to take place. Some come out of “Alpha Expansion” totally refreshed because their mind came out of its mind-set trap. I view that every belief is a state of hypnosis. De-hypnotizing “Beta” alone is very therapeutic. 

Many of the client’s mind-set beliefs were not built over night. A hypnotherapist can watch a client come out of their session with a calm, peaceful, relaxed look and while coming back into BETA, they begin feeling the traps of their beliefs. All hypnosis is self-hypnosis. If the client learns to put himself or herself into the Alpha realm, they can eventually break the hypnotic beliefs that are keeping them miserable.  

Hypnosis-Anesthesia

(I was not going to do this - but it may assist someone)

“Hypno-anesthesia” is an induction / process for one’s desire to control their pain.

Perceive that there are four observable brainwaves: Beta, Alpha, Theta and Delta.

Perceive that in Alpha, one has abilities that they do not have in Beta. Perceive that most do not have the same powers when they are asleep as when they are awake. I view that the only ONE thing that somewhat goes to sleep is one’s strong-willed ego. Everything else mentally, emotionally and probably genetically, actually wakes up to an amazing awareness.

Ok, here goes for those of you who have not tuned-out. I have personally succeeded in my pain-control with “hypno-anesthesia”. I will mechanically take you step by step through a recalled experience.

I met a very high-strung, successful lady at a LIFESPRING seminar in L.A. California in the early 1980s. She became a hypnotherapy client. Her husband, a former marine, I will call L, appreciated my services and invited me to go fishing in his boat off the coast of Santa Monica.

It was about 6 AM on a Sunday morning when we trolled for Bonita. I hooked one about 12 pounds and got the fish in the boat. The bent pole was secure while the fish flopped around the deck. I reached down to retrieve the hook, which was the size of a small gaff-hook, and the fish spit it out. The tension of the pole snapped the hook up into my hand, and buried it, barb and all, into my first-finger palm-knuckle. About an inch of the huge hook and barb was imbedded to the hilt into my knucklebone.

L noted the bloody situation and calmly asked me what I wanted to do. I considered my options. Go back in and ruin the fishing trip. Go to the energy room on a Sunday morning for a large expense, shots and probably stitches.

I asked for his pliers. I tried to remove the imbedded hook - which then produced excruciating, unbearable pain. I put the pliers down. I considered trying to push the hook through the knuckle but severe pain made me quickly realized that was not the best idea.

I said to L, “Give me a few minutes.” He bottom fished, smoked his cigarette, and watched quietly. I went into my practiced self-hypnosis process - which I will describe.

To process, you may create an imaginary center. Your center. Some processors typically pick a mountain-top, a meadow, a cabin - anything that you care to fantasize. It is your process and you may visualize anything you choose, the more unrealistic and improbable the better, to relax reality and to activate the process. This is designed to help you control getting out of your Beta and into your Alpha brain-waves. 

In my fish-hook incident process, I closed my eyes and visualized that I stepped onto a 5-step down escalator. I rode it underground as I slowly counted down 5 - 4 - 3 - 2 - 1 - 0 and I stepped off.

I walked to a huge double-door elevator. When I pushed the button, it opened and it was like a tornado of smoke, trash, papers and confusion swirling around. I always seem to experience this. A simple wave of my hand stopped it.

The elevator was round and all glass. I pushed the top floor # 25. The first # 1 that I counted launched me and the elevator up leaving the Earth, passing the Moon and the Sun. Counting number 2, I passed some galaxies. The colors are as vivid as any painting possible. I slowly counted up, passing entire Universes to 25. At 25, the elevator stopped and opened up to a small, luxurious room in the vastness of space.

When the elevator door opened, again a tornado of smoke, trash and papers seemed to fly around the room. (I don’t know why that always happens.) A deliberate wave of my hand calms it. I am in control. The room is perfect. If I choose to change anything – it takes a simple wave of the hand. There is a bed that I have never used. There is a strange chiropractic looking table / chair and most of all there is GORNIG.

The Sutphen Seminar Training (SST) was another $300 / weekend hypnosis training that I attended. Actually, I attended it twice because during the first seven (7) hypnotic inductions - I went nowhere. I could not understand how to be hypnotized. Everybody else (300 people in the room) dropped like flies. I could hypnotically drop them like flies. But, I could not be hypnotized. During the second $300 weekend and after another 4 hypnotic inductions - I finally broke through.

During the processes, we were encouraged to get in touch with our guides. After many attempts and frustrations, there finally appeared “Gornig”. It took some patience to get the name “Gornig” or is it “Gornic” out of him. What is a “Gornig”? So, I settled on “Gornig”. “Gornig” was surprising in that he was small, wrinkled, always smiling, maybe Irish, with awesome eyes of humble wisdom, knowledge, and understanding. He always smiled lovingly no matter what my crisis was. He never spoke when I expected him to. When he said a few words, or asked a question, it usually ended up having an simple, yet important meaning to my concern. (Sometimes I willed “Gornig” to look like Sissy Spacek when I gave him a hug.) Also, there was Doc Virgil Hudson, my childhood family doctor. He died when I was about 25. His smiling, all-knowing demeanor was likable and effective. I really like Doc Hudson.

Back to the small “gaff-hook” in my hand. I gave my hug to “Gornig’s” and Doc Hudson emerged through the wall. Outside the large picture windows was the most spectacular vision of space that I could imagine. This was my center. I can get work done here. I was home.

Doc had me sit in the disfigured chair-table – which, once situated, strangely seemed to fit me perfectly. I was totally comfortable. He smiled knowingly while examining my hand. A large TV screen appeared and it showed my hand from all angles with the fish-hook deeply imbedded into the knuckle.

Doc said: “Imagine your hand, palm and finger lighting up around the fish-hook.” The monitor showed the area getting brighter. Imagine putting strings horizonital across the problem area. Now put vertical strings in the area. Have all those strings ooze  Novocain, Zylacain, Fartocain, endorphins - any other pain killers you can imagine. He said, “Make it brighter.” I willed it to be brighter. “Brighter”, he said. When it became so bright the room was totally lit up and it hurt my eyes, Doc said: “Now, shut it off”. I said, “What?” Suddenly there appeared a simple light switch. I switched it off. The entire treated area went onyx black. He said, “You see, there is no pain. Now, take the hook out of your hand”. I got anxious and thought, “Man, this can’t work! What if I’m fooling myself.” He just smiled, knowingly and said, “Take the pliers and take it out.” “There is no pain”. I started saying, “There is no pain! There is no pain!” I opened my eyes, took the pliers, and grabbed the hook. I started to pull. “There is no pain, there is no pain.” It was like picking up a 30-pound barbell. I kept pulling. “There is no pain.” The hook did not budge. I pulled harder. Finally, the tip of the barb surfaced farther from the hook than I anticipated. I continued to pull. I pulled hard. The bone, meat and skin released the hook. I put down the pliers and bloody hook. I closed my eyes. Doc said, “Imagine that your healing, infection-fighting white blood-cells flood the treated area.” I did. “There will be no infection.”

I opened my eyes, turned to L and said, “Give me another moment.” I closed my eyes. I shook hands with smiling, know-it-all, Doc Hudson and gave grinning “Gornig” a big, long hug - and entered my elevator. I pushed 0 and slowly began my count to Beta consciousness. The Universes were flying by as I counted down. When I hit 0, the elevator stopped, and opened with no tornado. I calmly walked over to the escalator to finish counting myself up to beta conciseness. I counted to myself, “One – coming up now, two, remembering absolutely everything, three – feeling good about myself, four - there is no pain or infection, five – eyes open wide awake, wide awake.” I gave myself another minute to fully regain Beta consciences then, I put my hand over the side to wash the blood off. Then, I beat on my chest and made like Tarzan.

I remember L said that if he had not seen that, he never would have believed it. Neither would have I.

The fishing trip turned out great.

Another time, I processed myself while competitively shooting at a police range. The awareness was awesome. I had the highest score for the day with 3 different handguns.

When I had most of my teeth capped, I processed myself for about 8 straight hours of tooth-grinding. The dentist saw in shorter sessions that I had felt no pain so at my request, he agreed to take a day and do the 8-hour experience. He viewed that after a couple hours the pain-killer repeatedly injected into the gums tended to wear off - but we were successful.

So much for my Hypno-Anesthesia experiences. It is like learning anything else. I am confident that with sufficient motivation and proper guidance almost all who try to use and practice at Hypno-Anesthesia may succeed. Naturally, there will be others who will try and not be successful. Many times, I had tried to be hypnotized and failed. I didn’t understand it. Most mind-set individuals will not be successful simply because they will not try. If you find yourself alone and in pain, as an option, you might try your own guided process of Hypno-Anesthesia. Remember, all hypnosis is ultimately self-hypnosis. I wonder if our genes assist us in our self-hypnosis. 

Skeptic: Ah, you’re lying. Your fish-hook story was all in your head.

No. I experienced it as I described it. I agree that the process was in my imagination; but, the process did get the fish-hook out of my hand.

Skeptic: I don’t believe it.

Believe nothing. Perceive much. Most pain is a lonely experience. For some thinkers - Hypnosis Anesthesia - may serve as a lighter-than-air tool that they may find useful in their one-and-only lifetime.

Skeptic: One lifetime? I am going to live forever with God.

Now, who is fantasizing?

I once heard a story that Orville Wright, in about 1905, was getting ready to fly is first airplane. He was doing his pre-flight check in a meadow along side of a public dirt road. An old farmer came by and stepped off his horse-drawn wagon. He slowly and silently walked around Orville’s airplane - inspecting every part of it. He then walked up, stood nose-to-nose with Orville Wright and announced: “You can’t fly that thing.”

Orville Wright smiled at the old farmer and knowingly said: “No …  you can’t.”

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Thought: Energy experiencing conditions and events against assumed standards. We think many thoughts at any given time. Only the most powerful are concentrated on.

Idea: A conscious, motivated thought.

Happiness: Having pleasant thoughts and feelings in time.

Unhappiness: Having unpleasant thoughts and feelings in time.

The simplest, most obvious, things - that do make sense - should be documented.

A socially inert man would hang on to a woman about as long as an impoverished beggar would hang on to a hundred dollar bill. They would both spend it quickly. As the beggar thinks he is poor, so does the socially inert man feel unworthy.

 Divorce is often the reaction to a persecuted environment.

A writer is often a thief of other’s experiences.

Socially there is a time and place for everything. The place is where the opportunity arises and the time is when the vibes say it is right.

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The social success thinks only of reasons why he should, The social failure thinks only of reasons he should not.

God Complex: When things go wrong - it’s your fault. When things go right - it’s my fault.

Anything short of death, earthquake, hurricane, or any other natural phenomenon, is due to lack of control and ignorance. Sometimes people cannot control current situations because their morals restrict and confuse the problem.

Emotionally persecuted people become moralists. It is a form of guilt / sadism toward others.

War causes a persecuted society. The insecurity of life may cause fear of facing the maker. A socially inhibited person may now seek roots with a mate and live a moral life in the eyes of man. A romantic may feel, “Thank God for war!” As long as we put value on war we are going to have the frustrated goal of banishing war.

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While we remain in the form of a biological animal, we can pretty much guarantee there will be war.

Trying to break the wills of others is a low form of war. Kill or be killed survival is the highest form of war.

The crusade of a practicing Christian is to kill the will of any free-thinker and to convert the will of the infidel to the will of his or her God. Practicing Christians constantly wage war on the free-thinkers of the world. Islam, another huge religion that worships the same God as the Judeo-Christians, sometimes kill the infidel.

A lasting affair may happen between a single and a married person because they feel that it is emotionally safer. No commitment or responsibility leaves them with a feeling of freedom that one or both can live with.

An individual, who goes to prison, may feel that emotionally he or she has been there all of his or her life.

When a person - caught of wrongdoing says he is sorry - but immediately makes excuses, the only thing he was sorry about was being caught.

A person gets better at a skill or talent the more he studies, practices and thinks about the talent. The same is true in studying, practicing and thinking about having sex.

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Argument: Declaring independence.

Freedom may be seen as sin to an insecure moralist.

Ladies and Gentlemen. If you believe, the Biblical God knows and controls all; then, you must believe The God Murders . . .

War, sex, divorce, and prostitution - they are in society and they always have been. They should be considered normal.

The God complex: This is the way it is going to be because I said so. The boss is the name and control is the game. It is going to be my way with or without you.

Masochistic goal. A day that goes by that I do not catch Hell about something is a day lost forever. It could be the child in us that received most of its attention while receiving pain.

Single swingers don’t pay the price of a relationship. The price being the responsibility and maintenance of the relationship. Liberated women assist this reality. 

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Thank God for sin. Without it, it would be a very dull life.

Combination of ego and humility: You are so luck to have an asshole like me.

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The Hassler

A hassle may develop when an insecure romantic is frustrated due to a neutral emotional effect from his or her romantic partner. The identity suffers lack of attention and an attack is made to receive strong emotions. They hope eventually apology and good feelings follow. Periodic success in this method of demanding emotional dues gives birth to the emotional blackmailer.

The other side of the coin is if the emotions aren’t cross fed the relationship becomes platonic and nothing to the emotional system. It you value the hassle enough to respond to it, you value the hassler. When it is successful, the hassler is reinforced.

Because of these successes, the hassler may become an agonizing head-trip to others. If the hassler feels emotional pain, due to failure, it is latently satisfied because positive / negative, good / bad, right / wrong emotions make the balance for really living. Neutrality and indifference provide vegetating boredom, which is the ultimate frustration to the emotional system.

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Marriage: A possession contract.

A lover may not care. They may put the burden of caring on the love object. The more you have to care, the less I have to.

If you chase others, it means that they ar4e running from you. If they run, their attitudes, hang-ups, preferences and commitments do not include you. If it is a game with them, they are trifling with your emotions and demanding an emotional price tag. Hassels and head trips are emotional price tags. If you commit your emotional system to a chase, failing may yield pain.

Unfaithful: Embezzeling trust.

When someone says "I trust you" concerning sex, they expect you to forsake any sexual ambitions or feelings you may have towards others for their sake. They are trying to become responsible for and in control of your sexlife. If you commit, you have put your entire sexlife into the control of one other human being on planet Earth. If that other human fails concerning your experiencing a satisfactory sexlife, how does your restricted status differ from slavery?  

Drugs and booze are vehicles for people who emotionally want to be someplace else.

Flaky: Emotional stuttering.

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Competition: A vehicle that allows us to exercise our sado-masochist emotions in an acceptable way without creating permanent damage.

Ego: This is my way. I demand you be this way too.

Memory: Thought-emotion records.

Independence: I control me, you don’t.

Leaders with personal goals as to where they want to go often fail in their responsibility to their subordinates.

During an affair, one wants the spouse, dumb, happy and away.

Outrage: A means of communication where language seems impossible.

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Motivations of Sex

Romantics have sex for emotional satisfaction.

Lovers have sex for sexual satisfaction.

Hookers have success for financial profit.

Big time hookers expect a financial payday first by a mass clientele.

Big time hookers expect larger financial paydays forever by a limited clientele.

When the love is gone, one great class of hookers can be called wives. (Finis)

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Emotions separate humans from computers. Ignorance is the key to emotions, so hoping to understand is much more exciting than understanding.

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Experiencing is not writing the script.

If something is logical and true, it is nothing to be afraid of. Not having the ability to perceive logic and truth is something to be afraid of.

Romantic cohabitation by law has evolved to be a business. Buying a romantic license is like paying a tax. Moral law taxes romantic cohabitation without a license.

Repulsive: A hangup multiplied by twice the speed of light.

Marriage: Legal emotional captivity in which it is illegal to break emotionally free.

A basic truth, like a continent, is only new to a discoverer.

Social success is being smart enough to be dumb enough to recognize social-emotional basics.

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Many are affected by the social, cultural, religious and moral pressures of today. They religiously pick a team, become selfish, territorial, possessive, and jealous. It becomes a give-and-take thing instead of sharing. They become obsessed with a pattern of future rather than objective. They become ignorant, not knowing that their primitive social pattern is unreal and doesn’t survive today. In their mind, they hang on to what they call standards and principles. God-filled standards and principles go into a child’s head and later in life come out as hang-ups. Honest parents are precious and hard to find. They believe their child’s mind can handle and crave truth and that their emotions deserve respect. How many parents are honest with their children concerning the topics of religion and sex?

Hypocrite; Privately, I believe none of it. Publicly, I believe all of it.

“I don’t care” may mean, “I don’t have control, so, why bother?”

Loyalty: People tend to be loyal to a portion of the Earth rather than to the Earth. They tend to be loyal to a chosen portion of another rather than the entire being. We are loyal to the portion that does for us.

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Courtesy: Giving up social expectations.

People get mad at you when you do something without their consent. If you are curious as to why they are mad, ask them how you could have “puppeted” for them.

One of the tragedies of life is when people cannot see what is in front of them.

To be emotionally free, stop being the jailer of your emotional prisoners.

Someone being completely true to another is giving up their identity.

The people who have the ability to accept you for yourself are the precious people of the world.

Inferior animals seem to live by fewer abstractions.

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No longer look to others to be responsible for your happiness and you won’t be unhappy anymore.

People who do not want to read mind-boggling head stuff will not read this shit.

Fantasy: Reality to the subconscious – miracles to the conscious.

Abstinence makes the hard grow fonder.

Religious fanatics run from the realities of this world to the bizarre abstractions of the next.

Casual affairs: Wonderful temporary relationships that can only be enjoyed if you experience minimal fear and insecurity.

Without a feeling for Hell, Heaven would hold no value.

Loneliness is caused by over selectivity, which is caused by insecurity, which is caused by ignorance.

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Freedom: Absence of commitment.

If you write a book concerning reality, don’t feel bad if it doesn’t go. You might feel bad if it does.

Romantic’s goal: To find a beautiful dove with a broken emotional wing with soft, pleading eyes to fix it.

Romantic’s disaster: When the dove with the mended emotional wing flies away. (Finis)

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Country music provides value to people whose emotional systems live with both empathy and sympathy for heartbreak drama.

Country-Western music / drama. “If you look at him, I will tear your arm off and beat you over the head with the bloody end of it – because I love you”.

God: “If you don’t obey Me, I will send you into Eternal Torment forever - because I love you”.

A cure for "apathy": 2000 CCs of give-a-shit.

People divorce when the loss of heartache becomes more important than the loss of economics.

Progressive jazz is abstract, flaky music designed to compliment n abstract, flaky emotional attitude.

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Emotional trivia: Majoring in minors.

Social success patterns: Assist people in their goals and they will make room and even push you in yours.

Everybody stutters. Some people stutter when emotions concentrate on something other than what the mind thinks should be said.

A cause for rejection: I could love you. Leave me alone. I could get hurt again.

Frigidity: My sexual hang-ups overcome my sexual drive. But, when someone comes along who can overcome my sexual hang-ups, I am no longer frigid.

Struggle and strife: Necessary for a romanitc's lovemaking – except after a trauma.

“Falling in love” can be a traumatic event.

Romantics, when enjoys emotional highs, don’t want to know why things feel good.

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They just want to bury their heads and enjoy it forever. They are afraid that if they break it down, they will lose the wonder feeling.

Don’t put expectations on others and magically you won’t respond in agony when others put expectations on you.

In time, romantic needs have to coincide to be of value.

Bad relationship: Emotions going in different directions together.

Floundering: Not having the ability to think what you emotionally want or to emotionally want what your think.

Many times people confuse positive thinking with idealism.

Reality is traumatic “Emotional Surgery” to the idealist.

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Emotional life theory: Emotions are the key to human life. Without emotions, human life would have no value.

Ignorance is the key to emotions. Without ignorance, we would have no emotions.

If we became knowledgeable enough to completely control our emotional system, after a few generations they may die.

Heaven forbid I ever experience an original thought and be alienated from the hub